Sue Saraswati Merry

A Beautiful Testimonial

2010-02-19T17:31:00.000Z

The testimonial below was sent to me recently by Sue Clempson. She is currently planning a workshop programme around The Song of Mother Divine. In her email to me she says:
".....I've been further inspired by the miracle of your book. I've actually planned a workshop that links completely with the text and images of it (probably on the back of an envelope, somewhere!!). The positive impact of your book is what I'm wanting to pass on; like a member of a relay team! So I find myself preparing to offer a few workshops, on the theme of 'healing the holes of hurt'.
And I'm about to place a job-lot order of your book, for a most special 'circle' time within my workshops.
Sue, thank you so much,
I hope the testimonial I've attached is of some use to you.

With love, Sue Clempson.

The Song of Mother Divine
by
Sue Saraswati

I feel compelled to offer a humble, yet heart-felt recommendation for this unbelievable book. It certainly reinforces the'less is more adage'.

Were I ever to be in the position to 'choose' one book to take to a desert island with me; this would be it.

It really is all that the human condition needs, to heal and nurture heart s and souls; to let go of lifetimes of pain and heart-ache; to release from the fears of the ego... to be free; to be centred; to be in peace; to be in love; to be, and to have the confidence to be...

This is so much more than a book; it is a miracle.

The first time I read it, I said 'Is that it?' Hearing my disappointment my daughter picked it up, read it, and said 'Read it again!' So I did, and did, and did.... day after day, after day; for weeks and months. Each day would begin with me reading this little book, from cover to cover, with no anticipation or expectation.. I somehow knew that the message of the book could only be received by reading and assimilating it as a whole. Several people I unashamedly 'thrust' it upon, would respond by saying which page they liked. I felt sure I just had to meet the essence of this book by absorbing it into my being, by reading it in its' completeness. As if meeting it thus, was as if meeting it in trust; that it would aid my sense of completeness.

What happened, was for me, a slow and gentle miracle. I had felt almost destroyed by a nervous-breakdown. At its worst, I had felt pain in my solar plexus as if impaled on a telegraph pole. Though 'coping' by the time I began reading 'The Song of Mother Divine', I felt that emotional and mental pain might be a constant feature.

I can only draw a metaphor between what I felt happening to me; and the wonder of seeing the first buds of Spring, after Winter. I felt as if I was slowly'coming alive' on the inside! As if both Spring and sunshine were present in my solar plexus.

I continued to present myself to this little book daily, to 'be' present with this little book; to be open to its pure and powerful message. Its wonder rippled through me; healing and releasing hurt; leaving calm and tranquility in its wake.

As time went on, this was most beautifully enhanced by a sense of joy, and the peace of pure love. And as long as I keep my channels of communication with Sue Saraswati's miraculous book open; the calm and joy and love fill my heart and solar plexus.

One morning, on reading it, I jumped up and ran to my husband to ask him what colour the text was on one of the pages. For me, the colour had changed and both text and image were vibrant and almost 3-D.

I had changed. I had become vibrant and alive, and I suppose that the healing of this book had transformed me from the wounded 2-D person that I had both felt and appeared, to a holistically-healed, 3-D person; who felt great joy to be alive..

I feel an immense sense of love and peace, which I intend to 'feed back' into the Universe.

And for Sue Saraswati and her artist-daughter Amy Merry, I feel a profound gratitude and love.

Never before has 'thank you' felt so inadequate. Sue and Amy, I send you my heart-felt thanks.

And for anyone out there feeling the distress of current or past heart-break; I urge you to read 'The Song of Mother Divine', and then read it again.

This has to be the book the world needs in preparation for 2012.

Sue Saraswati is a prophet in our time:

'Om. Shanti. Peace.'
With love, Sue Clempson.

Sacred Mother Divine Geometry

2009-11-07T13:59:00.007Z

Last night I hosted a gathering of the Kingston Peace Experience Group. We meet on an irregular basis and usually at my house. There is quite a large group of us but we are never all able to meet at the same time. Consequently the groups are always a manageable size and a different mix of people each time.
The Kingston Peace Experience Group links with the Global Peace Experience Group. The difference being that the Kingston group meet with me in person, the global group join us remotely.
Something quite extraordinary happened last night that I want to share with you. For once I was quite organised and gave myself lots of time to prepare for the arrival of the group. We were to meet at 7.30 pm and were due to begin a 30 minute meditation at 7.45 pm when we would be joined by the global group. So I began to prepare the space that we use in my house. When I started to put out the candles I suddenly had the thought to put a copy of the Emissary Wheel in the middle of the floor. When I went to fetch one I remembered that I actually had a very large copy that I hadn’t used for ages. So I dropped this in position on the floor and carried on setting up. However I sensed a change in the energy of the room. I looked at the Wheel – which was curling up – and remembered that I had some enlarged images from my book ‘The Song of Mother Divine’. The images are mounted on board, I used them when I had an exhibition stand and then put them in a very large plastic bag and totally forgot about them. So off I went and fetched the pictures. I began placing them around the room. As I did so there was a huge increase in energy and I was aware that I was moving out of my mind space and into my heart space. It was only about 5.00pm and I had yet to eat anything. I began to wonder what kind of place I was going to be in by the time everyone arrived.
I staggered through my remaining chores, managed to cook and eat something, and even dealt coherently with a couple of phone calls – at least I think I did, the people I spoke to might have a different story. I also tried to alert the remote group to what was happening via email, suggesting they might want to include some sacred geometry in their meditations. About 6.45 I sat in the meeting space to complete a meditation process that I had been following with my teacher Sri Kaleshwar (http://www.kaleshwar.org/). Wow the energy was high. I started to get some odd physical symptoms. Now I began to wonder if I was in fact feeling odd because I was ill – no I didn’t really think so. I decided that I would encourage people to come in quietly and sit in the energy while we waited for everyone to arrive, instead of chatting and drinking tea etc. When the first couple of people arrived I needed to ask them how they felt the energy was and they too felt it to be very powerful.
At last the whole group were together and we had a 30-minute meditation as arranged with the global group. We had quite an exceptional evening. It was difficult to speak, so we did very little of that. I played the Native American flute and we meditated with that, it spoke to us very beautifully. It is impossible to put into words why the evening was so exceptional; I have rarely encountered energy like that before. To explain it with the mind is not possible, it is of the soul and only the soul can understand it.
The images from ‘The Song of Mother Divine’ are so, so powerful. I remember now that the energy on my exhibition stand was also very high. Even though I am responsible for getting this book out into the world I do not think I really have any idea at all of how powerful it is and what that means. What is that energy? To me it feels like the energy of creation, the creative, love energy of the Mother.
I am going away now for 2 weeks to our house in Greece. I will take that time to reflect on this experience and to ask myself if I am doing enough to give you the opportunity to experience this energy.
Many blessings. Be with the love of the Mother.

Getting Out of Our Own Way

2009-10-06T18:19:00.002+01:00

The only reason we are unable to connect with the joy that is our natural condition is that our blocks and attachments hinder us. They are like old socks stuck in the pipeline of peace. They obstruct our ability to perceive the flow of unconditional love that is really all that is.

Blocks
The old energy patterns that no longer serve us - our mind-sets and emotional patterns.
We may have originally unconsciously created most of these during childhood as a way of being safe in an unpredictable, terrifying world. In this way we created our personal map of reality and know that we stay safe so long as we stay within this map. Even incredible suffering is preferable to stepping outside our map. In fact because we believe that the map is also the territory we become unable to step out of it, even when we really want to. This is why it is sometimes possible to attend every workshop, read every book and see every possible therapist but always remain with the same major blocks.
We can also make the mistake of expecting that the mind can resolve this situation and even feeling that we have failed when this proves to be not possible. The mind is much more likely to hinder than help us. Our blocks were not created by the mind and we cannot change them with the mind. Transformation does not occur at the cerebral level, it occurs at the level of consciousness.
Some typical blocks are unworthiness, doubts, lack of clarity, lack of trust, temptations, expectations, guilt, heartbreak, fear, depression, addictions

Attachments
The world around us is in fact an illusion created by our minds. Each different mind creates a slightly (sometimes vastly) different world. Who is to judge which world is the ‘real’ one?

“The mind produces a powerful illusion, that of existing in this body which we consider to be our own.” Kalu Rinpoche

Your body, that you can touch and feel and which appears to be quite solid is actually mainly empty space. This is because the atom is mainly empty space and the body is made of atoms. In fact if you were to somehow remove all the empty space from the body, although it would still weigh the same it would be no bigger than a grain of salt. So science says it too. We’re basically an illusion. And so is everything else that we can perceive with our senses.

We form attachments to these illusions and fear their loss and mourn their passing. Our attachments can be to physical objects or to outcomes. The truth is that we own nothing. We came into this world with nothing and we will leave it with nothing. Anything in between is only ever temporary. The one constant is unconditional love, the creative energy that drives all things.

The only true love is unconditional love, any other love is really fear of loss. Worrying about someone is not the same as loving them.

Again we feel at a deep level that our attachments keep us safe, which is why we fear their loss. We can also find ourselves looking to the material world for fulfilment, sometimes driving ourselves harder and harder to find it. But like the end of the rainbow, the faster we move towards such expected fulfilment, the faster it retreats from us.

This is the human condition and first we have to recognise and accept that. We are here to experience the human condition, we are here for the ride first and the destination second. And what an adventure it is. But like any adventure it is sometimes fun and sometimes difficult and painful. So why not aim to make it mostly fun? Why not enjoy the ride? It’s going to happen anyway so it might as well be as pleasant as possible.

Healing
How to release the old patterns that no longer serve us? I have found different ways to do this:
· Meditation is essential and particularly powerful when practised with a group.
· There is also an accelerated meditation system called the Holosync Solution available, at a price, from http://www.centerpointe.com.
· The Metamorphic Technique is a very, pleasant and relaxing method that facilitates transformation. http://www.metamorphicassociation.org
· Emotional Freedom Techniques (EFT) is another, very effective way of shifting the patterns that no longer serve us. This system can be spectacularly quick acting with even very distressing patterns such as phobias, fears and addictions. One advantage of this system is that most people see immediate results. It is a system that is used by a practitioner with a client but is also intended for the client to learn and use in their daily lives. www.emofree.com
· Sai Shakti Healing (more below) www.kaleshwar.org

Energy Balancing & Unconditional Love
We ( I am working with Stephne Monaghan) are currently working on a healing protocol that uses EFT combined with meditation and Sai Shakti Healing. This is a healing technique from ancient, palm leaf manuscripts as taught today by the Indian Swami, Sri Sai Kaleshwar.
Such ancient techniques are primarily aimed at healing heartbreak, offering protection from negative energy and increasing soul power.
Imagine a healing experience that gives you the tools you need to remove the energy imbalances that cause painful emotional and physical symptoms from your life – the socks in your pipeline of peace. Imagine an experience where someone helps you to do this and provides a healing environment where transformation can safely occur. We have found that using meditation, EFT and Sai Shakti healing together seems to cause acceleration in the process of releasing old patterns. As the blocks start to dissolve the powerful healing energy of unconditional love, facilitated by the healer, can be felt immediately and very powerfully. All this facilitates a shift in consciousness.
Those who actively seek the spiritual path or the path of self-development will understand the difficulties involved in both identifying and then releasing blocks and attachments. Talking the talk is easy, but walking the walk is much, much harder. We are working with this system because we are finding that it really helps us and also helps us very quickly. I have been astonished by how rapidly and how easily I have identified and then shed some of my old patterns.

Our aim is to continue to develop this work by being as open and receptive as possible. We want to continue to explore and adapt our work as our own consciousness shifts. Although we aim to accept each session as a fresh experience we work within a safe and supportive structure: tried and tested energy balancing techniques encompassed by unconditional love. This is very much work in progress.
Eventually we will also offer to check and improve the energy of your home using the science of Vaastu (Feng Shui was adapted from Vaastu). Also we will look at your diet and advise you on how to eat optimally for spiritual and physical health.
At least these are the things we have planned at the moment. However the very nature of this way of working is to only expect the unexpected. So things will probably evolve in a way that we have not thought of!

Volunteers
If you are still interested in working with us then please let me know. At the moment we are working quite slowly with a very small number of people. Once we feel ready to offer our work to you we will contact you. You will need to be able to come to Kingston or Richmond every 2 weeks or so for 2-3 months.

Be The Change: Connecting Glastonbury Tor & Miamisburg Mound. May 17th 2009

2009-05-21T11:02:00.031+01:00

You must be the change you want to see in the world.
Mahatma Gandhi political and spiritual leader (1869 - 1948)

Glastonbury Tor & Miamisburg Mound

Early in 2008 Tammie Stair http://www.tammiestair.com/ told me that while she was at Miamisburg Mound she had had a vision of the tower on the top of Glastonbury Tor. She feels they are sister mounds. We decided that it might be a really great experience if we worked with groups in the UK and USA to connect the two sites energetically. It took a while for the time to be right be finally we got it together at the weekend.

I was with a group from the Beloved Community, led by James Twyman (who were on retreat in Glastonbury at the time) and Tammie was with her group in Ohio. Tammie and I spoke on the phone before hand and decided on what we would do on the day. The plan was to be on top of our respective sites at 15.30 hrs UK time which is 10.30 hrs for Tammie. Both of us would begin by connecting with the elements and the Divine in our own ways.

We would then read The Song of Mother Divine http://www.findhornpress.co.uk/ http://www.suesaraswati.com/ and follow this up with a 20 minute silent meditation. Tammie planned to finish by playing a recording of Jame's Twyman's song "Be The Change". Jimmy agreed to sing it live for our group. Well that was the plan...... but as I said at the time: if you want to make god laugh, tell her your plans!

Glastonbury

Jimmy organised it so that the group would first visit the Chalice Well at Glastonbury http://www.chalicewell.org.uk/ and then would carry on to the Tor to be at the top and ready to go for 3.30pm. The weather was grey, chilly, wet and windy. I had been up to the Tor the day before and knew that whatever the weather in the town, you need to multiply it by a factor of 10 to know what it will be like at the top of the Tor. It can be wild up there. So I was wondering how we were going to deal with whatever nature was planning to throw at us.

Jimmy led us off to the Tor a little early I thought, it was only around 2.00pm. But I supposed he had some plan in mind and anyway he was way ahead of me, up at the front of the group. So I plodded along at the back chatting to Beloved Craig who I hadn't seen for ages and who had joined us just for this peace connection.

By the time I got to the top of the Tor it was around 2.35pm and the wind was whipping and howling around us. It was difficult to keep on your feet and made worse by the ridiculously large amount of cow-dung underfoot. Where had all that come from? .... Well, yes I know where ... but what I mean is, it was as if every cow in the West Country had recently been up there with some sort of bovine coach-party. One of the Beloveds went flying and had to be helped back to her feet and the rest of us were clinging to each other in order to avoid the same fate. I was really wondering how we could hang on until 3.30 and then some. Then Jimmy looked at me expectantly and asked me what I wanted to do? Errr..... OK. What exactly ....? Err .... ? I thought he had something up his sleeve for the next 50 minutes ... So it transpired that Jimmy was one hour ahead of the rest of us. In other words he thought we were late, that it was 3.40. Oh dear. "Why didn't someone tell me?" He asked. "Well we all thought you had a plan Jimmy..."

I'd just like to point out that this photograph was taken by me in gale-force winds and at great personal risk. The group are standing in the only sheltered spot at the top of the Tor.

So what to do now? It was perfectly obvious that 25 + people could not stand huddled together in that same spot for another hour or so. Jimmy decided to make our part of the connection right then and spontanously spoke about that, acknowledging all the groups and individuals that would be joining us as well as Tammie's group. He gave us a quick acapella rendition of "Be The Change" and asked everyone to keep their hearts open for the connection and to be aware, wherever they were at 3.30pm. Then a very bedraggled group began to disperse back down the Tor. It was now around 2.55pm.

See, we really were there, all of us... and one other person.

I thought perhaps I might return to Abbey House, where the Beloveds were on retreat and where they had built a beautiful Emissary Wheel. I thought I might sit around the wheel at 3.30pm (in the warm and dry!) and visualise us on top of the Tor and perform the ceremony Tammie and I had agreed upon. However I had not reckoned on the tenacity of some of the Beloveds! They would not hear of such a sissy old cop-out. At the top they were and at the top they would stay until the agreed time and weather do your worst - which, obligingly it did.

So in the end 10 of us stayed, complete stars all. After a brief excursion to see the egg stone on the side of the Tor we battled through heavy, horizontal rain, back to the tower to wait for exactly 3.30. By now I was soaked to the skin and we were huddling together like moorland sheep. It was really too wet to take out my camera but I managed to get a quick snap of Beloved Ingrid, as she was snapping us: how those umbrellas were staying up I cannot fathom

Finally it was about 3.29 and the rain was stopping. Across the Somerset levels we could see bright weather, sun even, as the cloud retreated. Beloved John held a brolly over me and two others held onto a copy of the Emissary Wheel (laminated fortunately) that I had in my bag. We huddled together and I began with some opening mantras. I then managed to hold a copy of the book The Song of Mother Divine in my freezing hands and I began to read. Quite spontaneously, and very beautifully, the Beloveds began to join in so that each time I read a statement they chipped in with "I am loved" and then they repeated closing statements after me. It really was beyond beautiful, I can't really find the words ...

We stood for a while in silent meditation, the energy was incredibly powerful, Beloved Craig later described how he had a joyful, humming feeling in his heart chakra. Despite the cold and the wind I could have stood there for ages. Then John's umbrella blew inside out and he sort of flew backwards which seemed to bring our meditation to a natural conclusion! I chanted some closing prayers and then other Beloveds chipped in with various prayers. We had the Lord's prayer in Aramaic (which is completely different from the Lord's Prayer we are all familiar with) we also had the Peace Prayers and a beautiful prayer led by Craig. I stood with my hand over my heart basking in the beautiful energy. It's amazing that it was so powerful given the battle we were having with the wind.

You've heard of the expression "Warriors of the Light"? Well this is the Marine Corps. These guys are tough!

We descended the Tor via the rear path. The sun was now shining and the wind dropping. Soon we were out of the wind entirely. Beloved Ella called to me to stop. We all stood and basked in the extraordinary feeling of peace that now surrounded us - it really was special. It felt to me as if something had descended upon us. The fields around us were vibrant green and the buttercups were ridiculously yellow, like a Van Gough painting. For the first time we could hear birds singing, it was as if we had stepped into the Garden of Eden itself.

Miamisburg

Tammie's group were in place on time. It was windy but sunny... how nice for them ;0)

They did have their own challenges but I'll leave Tammie to tell that story herself.

I spoke with Tammie on the phone on Tuesday and she told me that the connection was the most powerful experience of her life. One of her group - a very experienced lightworker - said that it was the purest Divine Feminine energy she had ever experienced, including Machu Picchu. So I have decided simply to post below all the feedback that I received from Tammie:

" WOW !!! The experiences from this connection have exceeded my wildest expectations. As we called in the directions and the Elements you could strongly feel the presence of energies being invited to join our circle. This was the third time that I have been led to read Mother Divine at this sacred site. The words seem to resonate with the vibration of the mound .Much has happened on the Miamisburg land ,especially to our Native American brothers and sisters.The mound carries the resonance of the Divine Feminine, nurturing Love. Through all that has transpired there, it is Love. Then we meditated and imagined merging the mounds, just feeling the connection with the Beloved community to be the change, that we want to see in the world.

I`ll share my personal experience of Peace with You. Right away I saw the grid ley lines lighting up as one sacred portal led to another and they branched out until the grid was golden.Then I grounded into the core of the earth and intended for my roots to travel to the Tor.It looked like I was in a kaliedescope of colors with elementals of many types zipping all around and some of the trees were ornate with golden entrances .It was like a celebration was going on....At one point I was sitting on a white horse looking out over the mist at the merging of the hillsides.The two became one so naturally and effortlessly.I saw three aspects of myself that no longer serve me climb aboard a small ship and sail away into the ethers. I feel like I had a nice healing and opening up of the throat chakra.We closed by holding hands and joining hearts and taking in the song "Be The Change" by James Twyman .I am Grateful and humbled by this experience......Love," Tammie

"I was privileged to be a part of the Peace Connection Experience on Sunday, May 17, 2009, to connect the sacred mound at Miamisburg, Ohio to Glastonbury Tor in UK. As part of my meditation, I asked spirit to give me a message about the meaning of these beautiful mounds and here is the answer that I got:

The mounds were constructed to focus energy in certain places on earth; to connect the grids of energy to each other so a communication could be established on the inner planes. There is an electromagnetic frequency specific to each earth mound that identifies its location and its specific purpose. Each mound has its own resonance and as they connect one to another a magnificent symphony of tones is produced through which that, if one is attuned to receive these tones, messages are transmitted; information from the higher realms is readily available if one is able to attune to the specific frequency. Humans are evolving to the point of being able to discern what messages are being transmitted. This higher frequency can only be received through specific attunement given only to those who are living through love."

Respectfully, Claire Kramer, Florence, KY

"The meditation with Tor and Miamisburg’s Mound I saw an infinite amount of fairies and daisies. As I connected with the 2 mounds I felt myself spinning out into space above the earth connecting with the planet and her energy. All day long I felt the strong connected energy and even lay awake that night pulsating with streaming energy.
I felt a healing and shift with my digestive system and my throat charka and sensed a downloading of healing information on the mound. I also saw Merlin on the steps of the tower. Light and Love," Helen

"Thank you for inviting me to experience the wonderful mound merging energies.That was an experience i won't soon forget.the peace and tranquility, the comfort and blessings I felt were phenomenal.Knowing Kwan Yin was there, feeling her presence... the smell of fresh flowers...I've been riding that wave for a coupla days!!Thanx again, Tammie... and to ALL who were present with us!! " Beve

"I had a great sense of peace while meditating at the mound I envisioned stone steps going up a rown stone tower..just peace, warm comforting peace"
Deb H.

Thanks to everyone who joined in!
Many blessings

Sue

My Trip to Elaiohori November to December 2008

2009-01-02T13:29:00.005Z

Here are some of the highlights (and lowlights!) from my recent trip to Greece when I was there from 10th November to 12th December.
Part One
Monday 10th Nov 2008
12.00 Arrived at Athens airport. Took bus from right outside to bus station. At bus station got coach to Mani via Kalamata.
I was very worried about this journey as I suffer from motion sickness sometimes so I was concerned to get a seat at the front of the coach. Although I felt extremely claustrophobic at first – listening to a very amusing podcast helped here – I was actually fine, even over the mountains. The trip turned out to be very easy and extremely cheap.
19.30 Arrived Stoupa, Mani. Dragged my (VERY heavy) cases – full of decorating equipment – along the sea front to the only open bar. There I met with our friends Sophie and Richard. It was a warm, one might even say, balmy, evening. Sophie and Richard took me up to Elaiohori, leaving me at Katharina’s house – the house I had rented for the month.

Tuesday 11th Nov
In the daylight took a look around our house, Villa Stepeni. Interested to discover that of the list of completed jobs we had been given only one had actually been completed, plus one was just being started.
Removed the protective cover from the car and was very pleased to find that the car started very easily, I had been worried that the battery might be flat. Took a very deep breath, checked over all my documents for the one-hundredth time and drove to the local police station in Kardymyli. I needed to get a resident’s permit in order to be able to complete the paperwork needed for us to legally become the owners of our car. On our last trip we bought a lovely little Kia Picanto from the car hire company we were using but had been unable to transfer the registration documents into our names because we needed a resident’s permit to do this. The only place to get such a permit is the local police station. The policeman who does this (there is only one) was not interested in doing it for us on our last trip. So now I needed to find a different approach. I checked my documents again (3 copies of passport, actual passport, five passport-sized photographs) I rehearsed what I would say: “Please can you help me …” I practiced crawling on my hands and knees and various positions of supplication. I’m pleased to say it all worked. He took all the information he needed and told me to come back on Thursday at 10.00am. RESULT! Well, actually. I didn’t allow myself to celebrate on account of the fact that there could still easily be some sort of difficulty. Greek bureaucracy is awesome. Even the simplest thing seems to require a sheaf of paper the size of a telephone book, every page signed and stamped (most important that it is stamped) plus information about your parents and 100 copies of your passport. Unbelievable.
From here I drove to Kalamata (about 40 mins away) and went to the two cathedrals of DIY: Practiker and Idea (known locally as “No Idea”). Here I bought all the decorating equipment and paint I needed to get started.

Wednesday 12th Nov
Started to actually work on our house. I began the enormous task of sanding the walls of the upstairs room. Dirty, heavy and unpleasant work. I began to realise how big the room is. Later our Greek neighbour Eleni appeared to ask me to come over for some food. I finished sweeping up the dust and then spent an hour sitting and eating with Eleni and Grigory – the former horrified that I was still not eating meat. How could I possibly be eating properly? Also she had prepared a rice dish with integral chicken and had had to hurriedly remove the chicken from my portion. This left me with the challenge of eating rice with chicken juice, hmm. But they are very kind, generous people and it was a joy to see them. I was having some trouble with the language though. I was a bit out of practice, especially as I have not been able to afford to attend the Greek evening class here in the UK. I found that I was having great trouble in getting any words out of my mouth at all. I confess this was a little discouraging, as I have been learning this language for a very long time.
Arranged to take Eleni and Grigory to the olive oil factory (owned by my friends Fritz and Burgi ) the next morning on my way to the police station to pick up my resident’s permit.

All this time I was trying to get in touch with Leta. Ah dear sweet Leta. How that name resonates for me. She was the lady who would enable the transfer of the registration document from Auto Union to me. I confess to being uneasy that we had handed over our money but were not the legal owners of our car. So it was not a good experience to be unable to raise Leta on the telephone for a couple of days. I managed it eventually. I don’t think I can bear to record the weird odyssey she led me on for the rest of my stay – and still going on the last that I heard. A job that, even in Greece is fairly simple, became the most complicated and drawn out process you can ever imagine. Have no dealings with this lady. She is very nice and sweet but the lights are on and no body is in. Leta, Auto Union Office, Pylos, Messinia, avoid.

Coming Soon in Part Two:
Martin Ate My Car!

Latest Trip to Greece

2008-12-31T14:06:00.002Z

http://picasaweb.google.co.uk/sue.saraswati/VillaStepeniDec2008#
I will be recording my adventures soon. In the meantime take a look at the latest pictures taken by me on Dec 9th 2008.
More soon!!
Happy New Year everyone. xx

Greek House Latest

2008-08-11T18:16:00.004+01:00

We've just returned from Greece. The house is looking good. At the moment the electrician is busily rewiring. Already the property is unrecognisable from the house we purchased 2 years ago. We are hoping to be able to offer it for rental next year and perhaps even invite a group out in the autumn of 2009. We have decided that rental will be available to people we know or people they have recommended only.

See the latest pictures here:

http://picasaweb.google.com/sue.saraswati/GreekHouseJuly2008

Visit to Eliaohori May 2008

2008-06-03T10:40:00.014+01:00

N.B. To see latest pictures (taken June 18th) follow this link: http://picasaweb.google.com/sue.saraswati/HouseJune2008

The House.

Nothing could have really prepared me for the shock of how I found the house when I arrived! For two years it had been unchanged and then suddenly.... well you can see in this photo. Notice the new stonework though on top of the kamara (the arched entrance). That continues from the new room that has been built on the side of the house and forms some of the veranda. The second photo (below) was taken from under the lemon tree that you can see behind the guy bending over in the first photo.

Here you can see the beautiful stonework on the new room. The flat roof of this room carries the veranda around the side of the house and enables lovely views over the gorge below the house and the surrounding mountains. The guys were working incredibly fast. When I arrived they were finishing off the walls of this room. When I left the roof was on and I could walk around on it. Here is a photo (below) taken from the veranda/roof of the extension.

The Neighbours

I have to confess that, as much as I love them, I was not looking forward to encountering the neighbours at the beginning of my visit. This was simply because I knew that my first sight of the house would be a shock and I did not relish the prospect of having to deal with anything else at the same time. Eleni and Grigory are delightful people but they speak no English and I knew they would want me to sit with them and talk for a while. As it happened the gods of house renovation smiled upon me. The most unlikely thing happened, Eleni and Grigory were intially nowhere to be seen. Only on my third visit to the site did Eleni appear. By now I had flipped over from hoping to avoid them and was beginning to worry about where they might be and if one of them was ill. Happily all was well and soon I was sitting on her terrace with some of her home-made pastries struggling along in my rudimentary Greek. But where was Grigory? Apparently he was out the back killing a goat. OK .... This was actually a big event and Eleni's daughter Sophia and husband Yanni soon arrived from Kalamata in great excitement. Not something that happens very often here in Kingston Upon Thames.

Later in the week I went for a walk and bumped into Grigory on his way to tend to the goats (the living ones that is). I took this photo of him. He insisted I follow him to an amazing viewpoint looking down the valley and over the distant mountains.

Where I Stayed

Before I left for Greece I emailed the Mani-Sonnenlink centre which is on the next mountain to our village. I was lucky enough to link up with the lady who runs the centre, Burgi Blauel. She offered me one of the studio appartments, as no seminars or retreats were organised for that time. This turned out to be truly wonderful. Burgi and I met only briefly, as she was off to Austria during my stay, but we got along famously and I could see that the centre would be very good as a residential centre for groups. Remarkably I also learned that Burgi's husband Fritz ran a regular meditation-type group on Thursday evenings and I was invited to attend during my stay. I duly went along and was astonished and delighted to discover that it was just like being with my own group here in Kingston! Really amazing parallels.

http://www.mani-sonnenlink.com/enindex.html

The Party

Some friends in the village of Pyrgos, close to our village, were having a house warming party and I was invited to attend. Their house has been renovated and designed by the same team that are working for us. Because of this I knew quite a few of the folks at the party.

The hi-light of the afternoon was the arrival of the local preist to perform a ceremony of blessing. This is a beautiful Greek tradition for a new house. A special table had been laid out for the occasion and the priest arrived with an entourage of helpers. He began to read from a prayer book, speaking very quickly and occasionally breaking off in order to turn through 360 degrees.

This went on for quite some considerable time. Suddenly the preist stopped and began to stagger and sway, he did not look well. A chair was called for and he sat. He complained of a stomach upset possibly to do with some eggs he ate for breakfast. Gamely he was soon up on his feet again and carrying on. Speaking even quicker, now with a certain edge of desperation. The assembled company were now transfixed. Was he about to have a heart attack? What kind of a portent would this be for the new house? He stopped and leaned forward on the table. I was sure he was about to vomit. He sat down again and we all fussed around him. Once again he gamely got to his feet and carried on. Finally, mercifully, he got to the end of the ceremony. When I told this story to Grigory the next day (while I was giving him a lift in my hire car) he thought it hilarious and suggested we use a different preist for our house-blessing!

At the end of the ceremony (Phew!)

N.B. To see latest pictures of our house (taken June 18th) follow this link: http://picasaweb.google.com/sue.saraswati/HouseJune2008

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Work Begins in Eliaohori

2008-05-01T14:24:00.007+01:00

At last work has started on our house in Greece. Amazingly it is almost exactly 2 years since we first saw the property. I believe we saw it first on May 25th 2006.

Around the 22nd/23rd April Jamie, our architect, met up with Taki the builder and Roland the electrician at the house. Jamie was expecting to be having a pre-work discussion with them. However when he arrived he found that work had already started and was progressing fast. He took these pictures.

I feel very odd when I see that something that has been in my head for so long is now actually being realised. We really are doing this! Of course now the exchange rate GBP v. Euro is hideous and only getting worse. Property prices are falling fast and the cost of our renovation has increased in all possible ways. We must be crazy. And yet, oddly, it all still feels very much the right thing to do.

I am exploding with creativity at the moment and have created an ideas book for the house. One of my better ideas is to incorporate labyrinths into the design as much as possible. I have one concrete finger-labyrinth that I will use, possibly as a wall tile or I may lay it horizontally somewhere. I intend to source more labyrinths and also create some myself. I want to have them all over the house and garden. I love the idea of people discovering them all over the place. I don’t know if there will be enough space to mark one out on the ground but if there is I will do this too. Labyrinth House! Very appropriate for Greece I feel.

My worry at the moment is that the builders have torn off the door to the wall cupboard that you can see in this photograph. This may seem like a trivial thing, but it is a very special door. The cupboard –which we call the Gecko Cupboard, because of the sweet little Gecko that lives/lived there (I hope he’s escaped OK) - has been in the house for a long time. It fills in an old window opening. Since at least the 1940’s various people have autographed the inside of the door. It is a wonderful sort of visitor’s book. But what have the builders done with it? Jamie promises that nothing has yet been thrown away and that he will get them to retrieve it from wherever they have thrown it. I hope so. I am still waiting to hear. A great example of what can happen when you are not around to keep an eye on things. I had requested the cupboard be left intact but obviously this was forgotten in the frenzy of tearing everything down.

I am off out to Greece on the 18th May. I wonder what I will find?

Earth Day

2007-03-30T13:30:00.000+01:00

Here is an email and some totally awesome pictures that I recently received from Tammy Stair one of the Peace Experience group:

“Hello Sue,
My name is Tammie Stair and I have been a part of your distant Peace workshop since it began. Infinite Blessings for All that you do!

I live In the U.S in Ohio. The Great Serpent Mound and many other mounds are in my area. My guides asked me to place a 12 Chakra Lotus Heart grid in the egg at the mouth of the serpent. They then showed me what the energy would look like releasing from the ground once the earth chakra was activated. I attached some pictures of the event if you would like to see. There are very many orbs that came in as the grid was being set up and during the ceremony. The picture by the tree is of the earth energies releasing.

We will gather on our Earth Day, which is April 28th at 1:00 Eastern time at the Miamiasburg mound for the honoring of the Sacred Earth. If you are interested in having the group join in we would love to have you. A Huna group from Hawaii and another amazing group from Australia will be joining in also. Peace and Love, Tammie Stair"

Let’s Join In
I think it would be lovely to co-ordinate a meditation with these groups. So I will be tuning in on April 28th at 13.00 hrs Eastern time (or 18.00hrs London).

Beloved Weekend in Brimingham

2007-02-09T13:57:00.000Z

I've just returned from a gathering of Beloveds at the Universal Ashram in Birmingham. These weekends are always lovely. We usually meet together on Friday evening and then on Saturday morning we build an Emissary Wheel out of stones.

Last weekend was especially wonderful as we met some new Beloveds. People had come from as far as Holland for our modest gathering. Also, for some reason, the energy of the Wheel was particulary strong.

As a picture is worth a thousand words - or so it is said - here are some pictures courtesy of Craig, who arrived for a few hours on Saturday with his wife Shannon and their son Dakota.

If you would like to host a Wheel building day or weekend please contact me. It's a lot of fun and a very powerful way to meditate.

The Dattatreya Experiment- part one

2007-02-01T12:45:00.000Z

I have been working remotely with two women using the Dattatreya process to help lift darkness from their lives. This has been something of an experiment to see how well this process might work with people that I have never met. I used a photograph of each person as a focus and spent ten minutes focusing on them and chanting the Dattatreya mantra while they joined with me in meditation from wherever they were located. I worked on each woman separately at completely different times. We then emailed each other to “compare notes”.

I have copied each email below. The first email is from me sent after the first connection with Penny:

04 January 2007 16:47
Penny,
Thank you for joining with me last night. I went into a deep meditation. Just a question, do you have any pain or problems in the left side of your body? Have you ever had any sense of something outside of yourself attached to you ?

I'll be interested to hear of your experience yesterday. Don't worry if you were unaware of anything happening, that is still very valid feedback.
Many blessings,
Sue

Fri 05/01/2007 04:44
Thank you for the other evening, my feed-back is as follows:

I had spent a large part of the day mentally preparing for the session by trying to clear negative thoughts, deciding on which mantra I would use (I ended up with "I am safe, I am protected by Divine Love). As the time came nearer I started to feel very bilious, which luckily did not amount to anything. I also got a dull sort of headache across my brow, but that too did not manifest into anything. When I lay down to "meet" you I had candles burning, soft music and vanilla incense (in case the headache & biliousness came back)!.
During the session, I found I could not keep concentrating on your picture but rather my eyes closed and all I saw was the most beautiful turquoise colours - quite a few shades of turquoise swirling about. I then "came to" with quite a start and thought I had been "out" for ages but it was only 20 minutes.
I slept like a baby that night and yesterday I was so much calmer, almost fatalistic about everything but not in a "it is all hopeless" mannner but more in a "So what - is it truly important" manner. My focus to get started on something and actually see it through seems the most in-my-face difference....I had managed to slip into being the world's best procrastinator and although my intentions on arising each day were good, by mid-morning I felt as if I was bogged down in treacle; yesterday I accomplished so much and today this energy is still with me. I feel so much more motivated to actually start on some sort of plan to get my life back under control but this time with the focus being on different priorities ...sort of "If you put the spiritual first the physical will flow" instead of 'If only I could win the Lottery then everything will be OK'
I do hope the above ramblings make sense to you....I did not even ask you what to expect in the way of changes or anything nor did I enquire as to what you would be focusing on for me, if anything, in particular.

Thank you so very much Sue for taking the time and trouble; may you be truly blessed in all your endeavours.

Will you let me know what you think please and if we need to do more, or
what you feel the next step should be?
Have a happy day
Love
Penny

(Note the two emails above crossed in the post as it were!)

05 January 2007 04:56
Hi Sue
Our emails have crossed! Yes to the left side issue - a friend of mine who is a very strong channeller says that dark forces try and "get at my golden spirit" and she put it like seeing fish barbs being hooked into me but that Michael - and other angels - protect and take them out. I apparently travel all over at night (no wonder I am shattered each day)! but of course this is not shown to me.
The physical pain part is that I have tremendous aching back/shoulders which is much stronger on my left side and have had a jolly old bunion removed but this was from both feet. This time last year there was a scare about my heart (left side enough)?which turned out to be just stress (JUST stress?!) thank goodness.

I am so interested with all this I cannot begin to tell you

Again, my thanks
Penny

Fri 05/01/2007 10:48
Penny,
Thank you for your feedback. Really interesting isn't it? I have to say that since I started connections with the group these one-to-ones have been the most interesting thing yet. I would like to feed these experiences back into the group at some point. Are you happy for me to do that with our stuff? If not it is OK. If so, tell me any limits you want me to place on the sharing - e.g. no name etc.

Penny I felt that something dark has been attached to your left side primarily. This was why I asked the questions that I did as it is possible it might manifest itself to you in some way such as pain, or an awareness of something heavy for example. So your reply is most interesting. So the thing we must do next is to be sure it is removed and then work to protect you in the future. The purpose of the Dattatreya mantra is to remove any negativity in people or places. It is also to offer on-going protection. To get the on-going protection you need to go through the process that I went through last year. However not everyone is up for such a commitment as that. Also I am awaiting confirmation from Kaleshwar Swami as to exactly how we can take people through that process. I am not sure it can be done remotely. So for now let's work intuitively.

To begin I think we should schedule in another connection time. How about Tuesday 16th January at the same time:19.30 hrs (London)? In the meantime meditate each day on the Song of Mother Divine. Let me know if you need a copy of this. http://www.knowonlythis.blogspot.com/
Let me know how you feel about my suggestions,
Many blessings,
Sue x

Fri 05/01/2007 20:13

Hello Sue

Of course you may use all/any part of this process as you feel fit - if it helps other folk then so much the better.
A couple of questions - may I tell my friend who did the channelling about this? I know she would be keenly interested. And would you at any stage like to read the channelling? The bit about dark energies attaching themselves to me comes in her explanation of what she saw/what was going on whilst she receives the message. Let me know if you feel it may be relevant.
I am more than happy to have another session - I am completely guided by yourself in this - and Tuesday 16th Jan at 19h30 (London) suits me fine. I will obtain a copy of Song of Mother Divine in the meantime - is it on your website?
My focus and energy levels have stayed with me today I am delighted to report; when I felt myself flagging a couple of times
I closed my eyes and looked for the turquoises which seemed to refresh me.
Anyway, I am willing to give the process every chance and I look forward to our next session - as you say, this is proving to be very interesting indeed.

Many thanks and warmest regards
Penny

We arranged another connection time to take place while I was away and out of phone/email contact. Still with Penny:

Thu 18/01/2007 04:04
Hello Sue

Hope the writing is flowing for you - no blocks!

Here is my feed-back for you:

Really different for me this last time - I did more-or-less the same preparations as before and then suddenly everything seemed to go into a sort of treacle-like atmosphere. It was such an effort to move - that is the best description I can give you, I think. From being well-prepared I suddenly realised I had about one minute to get settled and connected! I rushed to my bedroom and then sort of passed out - don't remember a thing. The last I remember was lying on my bed, closing my eyes and bringing your picture forward, and seeing your thumb and then that was it. Woke up at about 11pm my time. Had a really awful night, did not sleep well, was feeling very uncomfortable but nothing I can actually put my finger on. Just sort of restless. Would it sound odd if I felt I was being tugged by opposing energies?
All day yesterday I felt VERY heavy across my shoulders and at the base of my head just where it joins my neck.....sort of like I wanted somebody to give me a good rub. My mood was good, though, but I had to consciously make a gentle effort to be positive.
I did not do last evenings meditation as I was still feeling "heavy" and "dark" almost and I did not want to bring grumpy energies into it. Last night was similar but less intense so I slept a bit better and this morning I feel easier and lighter.

Once you are back in email contact and have had time to sort through everything I would be most interested to receive your take on this.

Warmest regards
Penny
Wishing you Heaven in your heart, starlight in your soul, and miracles in your life

Mon 22/01/2007 13:49
Penny,
Hi just got back to my PC. Sorry for the delay. The writing went really well, thank you.
Your experience is very interesting.

My feeling this time during the connection was that you are a very powerful light worker and I felt very strongly that you are surrounded by great love and light. As you well know, dealing with such powerful positive energy means that you have to learn to deal with the opposite and balancing negative energies. However I really felt that these energies are balancing in you now.

Your reported symptoms sound very like a healing crisis. I have experienced something similar myself on a few occasions, I usually feel as if I am about to get a terrible dose of flu.

As your email is from a few days ago, let me know how you are feeling now before I say any more.

Love & blessings,
Sue

Mon 22/01/2007 20:25
Hello again Sue

Welcome back to email contact - I was thinking so strongly of you just now I had to log on and see your reply...I normally do my emails early in the mornings after my meditation.
Yes, I do believe I am surrounded by huge love and protection and since the last meditation I am getting the idea more and more that I am being prepared in some way for some thing; prior to the last couple of weeks this sort of feeling without knowing would have driven me to frustration of note but now I am OK to just let things take their course - that is Feeling No 1.
Feeling No 2 is that I am to be more disciplined with myself insofar as I know I have to get back to my readings and Reiki as much for myself as well as for others. All of a sudden I have a lot of people calling for Numerology and Osho readings and the Crystal cards and counselling and because of this I have to get back to my old fluency in these modalities.
Feeling No 3 is intense heat in all of my body; it is SO embarrassing as I sweat like a little pig and when I put my hands on my face they burn like anything - these waves of heat come just after meditation or when I am working on someone's Numerology chart. I always got hot when I did Reiki but this is so much more now. In fact the palms of my hands are permanently quite red and always warm to hot now.
My shoulders and neck have eased, almost gone in fact, thank goodness, but my sleep is still strange insofar as I feel that I "pass out" rather than just fall asleep each night. I now play a soft gentle soothing CD to go to sleep on - my favourite is either the sea (no dolphins or whales or anything - just the sea) or one of the Mike Rowlands Angel CD's, or similar.
The biggest shift for me is sense of calm, peace, acceptance...all those sort of rolled into one. My employment situation is still as precarious as before but now it doesn't consume me with stress and anxiety as I have a certainty that I will be OK.

I hope you can work with the foregoing....I still "look for the turquoise" that I had on the first session whenever I feel down or worried and this 'going in' seems to work well, and I can do it anywhere and at any time without people being aware of it, which is also nice.

Thanks again for everything

Penny

PS - Did you get that channelling form my friend Noeleen?

Thu 01/02/2007 12:00
Penny,
Sorry been a little overwhelmed with emails of late and this one disappeared for a while.

Yes I did get the channelling but did not want to read it before our last connection. I need to read the channelling properly but the explanation from your friend is awesome. All I can say is keep working on yourself as you are a blessed creature of the light with much healing to offer. Be sure to take all measures to cleanse and protect yourself and anywhere that you work. I hope you will continue to work with Mother Divine energy to protect and support you.
Please keep me updated on your progress.
Many blessings to you,
Sue

Here are the emails from my correspondence with Belinda. The first one was sent after our first connection:

Wed 20/12/2006 18:28
Dearest Sue

Thank you for an amazing connection! First: My day started with excitement
and my meditation earlier in the morning was mind blowing: I was on the
Buddhist Plane, I think?! I saw Buddha in a solid golden aura and The Beings
of Light - I felt blessed and very loved and save:

We take a walk almost daily (in nature at the golf course) and my husband
suggested that I meditate somewhere on our nature path.. We got a lovely
spot close to water (a dam / lake) under a huge tree. I have decided to
connect with you at 10 to 18h and just before I got a lovely 20cm dark shiny
feather and a small white feather and two rabbits. As I was about to connect
I got an SMS on my cell phone and ignore it. The minute I have focused on
you I saw lots and lots of small silver stars (my thought was Fairies). They
have sparkled in the sunlight and was very bright and alive, then I saw an
golden aura light around your head and neck-heart (a circle, egg shape). For
20 min I saw the golden aura but the shape changed, I can't describe exactly
in what - it looked like symbols?!!

The interesting part is that the fish in the lake kept on jumping out in
front of me. The whole area in a sort of half moon area from left to right.
The other phenomena was the birds - we have 'Kiewiet birds' and they were
screaming and really went crazy in a nice way.

During the meditation I felt a pressure just for a split second on my third
eye spot, I also experienced my angels and guides touching me on my head. I
felt extremely warm in my face for the duration of our connection. I felt if
I was looking straight into your eyes and going in ... I also experienced a
pain under my left shoulder / back?!

The sky was perfect and the clouds looked angelic. The sun reflected on the
water and a direct sunray touched me - I knew it was as sign from Raphael. I
felt total contentment after the meditation and when I closed my eyes to say
a short prayer to God the same Buddha imaged was crystal clear in my mind?

I had an wonderful meditation, thank you - you are a true lightworker for
God. Thank you for your healing and connecting with me. (On our way back we
saw an 'meercat' very close to us)!! I got lots af white feathers and one
golden feather. The sms was from a company called 'Angels Delight' and said:
LOVE WEIGHS HEAVIER THAN GOLD!!

Thu 21/12/2006 11:20
Belinda,
Great experience you had! I began preparing for our meditation before the allotted time, about the same time you describe. I started to feel myself slipping away as it were, about 10 minutes before; interesting! At around 16.00 hrs I put my thumb over the third eye spot on your photo. I kept my visual focus on you the whole time and it was extraordinary how your photo really seemed to be alive. It did not look like a photo, it looked like a real, warm, living and breathing human face. I felt heat and tingling from my hand and beneath my thumb. I had no doubt at all that I was directly connecting with you.

After ten to fifteen minutes I removed my thumb and sat in meditation for a further ten minutes or so. It was so powerful that I wanted to email you straight away but there is lots of family stuff happening here right now and this is the first chance I have had.

Please continue to meditate daily and focus each day on the Song of Mother Divine, let the energy beyond the words touch you deeply. Let's see how you get on over the next few days and take it from there.

Sometime in the New Year I would love to share our experiences with the whole group. However only if you are comfortable with this. Please let me know your feelings.

Many blessings and much love for a wonderful holiday season,
Sue x

Thu 21/12/2006 14:50
Hi Sue -Thanks for e-mail. While reading your e-mail I am covered with
clairsentience and this IS a sign from my Angels!! Yes your photo was
certainly alive as well. I am so happy and have feelings of total
contentment. I will meditate every day and let you know. You can share our
experience with the group. We can empower them with our experience. I have
to tell you that positive things are happening with me and doors seems to
open slowly. Thank you again for your great healing work.

Lots blessings and love - may you and your family experience God's presence
every day! Love B x

We arranged to connect for a second time:

24 January 2007 12:21
Hi Sue - Thank you for your e-mail. I am also off-line (my 19 year old) is
using my screen so I can only use my own screen when she is not around at
University ha ha.

I was extremely tired when we did our meditation due to a lack of sleep (for
two weeks). I have decided to do our meditation on my bed and got hot energy
flashes and went into total contentment and before I knew I was asleep and
had a good night's sleep for the first time in six years! Amazing! I was
totally relaxed and full of energy the next morning happy and joyous! I have
peace of mind and experience God's Favour on me although I can't see any
tangible evidence yet! You are truly a lightworker for God! Thank you - God
bless - love Belinda xx

Belinda,
So glad you had a good experience. You say "I have peace of mind and experience God's Favour on me although I can't see any
tangible evidence yet!" I would say the experience itself is tangible evidence of Divine Abundance!! :0) Recognise it as such and you keep the door open for abundance in other forms, it is really important to recognise it though.

Give me an update on your progress in a week's time if you can. Then I think I will share our experiences with the group if that is still OK?

Love, light & blessings,
Sue

Thu 01/02/2007 15:40
Dearest Sue - Just to let you know that I always have a big smile after
reading your e-mails. Your energy is so positive and inspiring thank you!
I would like to share my personal experience with you which I had last night
while I was meditating with 5 other people (my 6 year old was one of them).
She is a lightworker!!
I connected with God Himself and I am convinced that the connection was made
possible because we are doing this healing work. I have done lots of things
but the perseverance of the spiritual work and my connection with you and
others alike really opened the spiritual realms. I have been working with
the angels (beings of light) and my spiritual guides for a long time now but
you know how I am on the bridge of depression and all the work we have been
doing really helped me.
In my meditation God gave me a golden ring and said that I am HIS bride as
we all are. He also said that to have faith is to believe in the things that
we can't see before we receive them - that is real faith and He is helping
us all. He also said that if we stand up for HIM HE will stand up for us and
He is the ULTIMATE power and great Spirit and if He is for us we don't have
to fear. I had the most loving feeling of tranquility and peace and
contentment. I saw nothing and I got the messages through my own thoughts
but knew that they we real. I felt so save - He also said that He gave me
His personal Guarantee and personal seal and that is all I need - He always
protect His children - we need to exercise unconditional love towards every
one! He also said we only need HIM - nothing else for HE is part of us and
we are part of HIM. I have to follow my inner knowing for that is HE! (A
samurai also gave me a sword with the words: Spiritual warrior).
As Silver Birch says: God's natural laws are perfect and we will attract
those who are like us! I really believe that with the work we do that GOD
Himself is with us all the time - for me the adversity is tough and I thank
God for a lightworker friend as yourself. I can see results - thank you for
keeping me in your sincere prayers every day.
Lots love and blessings - Belinda xx
PS. I trust that you are pleased with my progress!

I hope you find all this feedback as interesting as I do! My plan now is to work with the other people that offered to help me with this experiment.

Many blessings to you all,
Sue

And When they Were Up, They Were Up ....

2007-01-26T12:20:00.000Z

I just received a lovely email from a friend congratulating me for always being on top of the world, positive and inspiring.

I would love to always be on top of the world, positive and inspiring!

My friend has caused me to think about this. It seems to me that this is not how things work at our level of (human) consciousness. We would have to shift into a higher level of consciousness and leave the restrictions of the human manifestation to be in a state of constant bliss. To experience a constant high is not why we are here now.

My experience is that we travel an undulating path and that what can happen is that when we are at the top of a hill we try to stay there and fear losing the experience of being there. When we inevitably reach the bottom of a hill we can descend into depression and think/fear we will never rise up again. Consequently we feel things are going well when we are on top of the hill and can even congratulate ourselves for all the personal/spiritual growth work we have done to achieve this. However when we are in a dip or valley we feel that things are going badly and can often feel disappointed and discouraged - all this work I have done on myself and I still seem to attract bad times! And yet really we are moving forward on a journey the whole time. And to move forward we will have to go up the hills and down into the valleys.

You know I think the fact that we start to believe that high is GOOD and that low is BAD is a cause of unnecessary pain in our lives.

My experience suggests that yes, OK, one state can be easier and more pleasant to be in than another that's for sure. However we need to trust that however we feel, and whatever our circumstances, we are always loved and are being guided by Divine Consciousness. We just have to shut up and listen! Which is why some form of meditation is absolutely essential to our progress. The fact is we'll completely embrace Divine Consciousness eventually, whether in this life or another. So why worry?

I make it sound so simple! I’ll let you know how I get on!!

A House of Peace in Greece: Part 1

2006-12-05T12:43:00.000Z

Phase one:
Finding the Right Place

Owning a house in Greece has been our dream for many years. I have always felt very strongly drawn to the ancient world. (Hence my life-changing trip to Egypt in October 2006 - see my relevant blog entries for this.)
In May 2006 my husband Roger and I travelled out to mainland Greece to look for a house. It was a very packed two weeks. Once we clarified for ourselves exactly why we were there - over an ouzo and a beer! - things moved very quickly. We were led to exactly the right area for us and, soon afterwards, to exactly the right house.

The house we found has very good energy, it has to be experienced to be appreciated. It is my sincere hope that many of you will be able to come to this place and share the energy with us. But first.......
Removal of Goats
The house we have bought used to be the local coffee shop – the kaffeinion - many years ago. A place where the local men would gather over a coffee or an ouzo and pass the time. It had not been used for this for a long time and the owner's aunt and uncle were looking after the place and storing things there. They also had their goats in the garden!

The garden is unusually large for the area and has been looked after well. The aunt and uncle grew vegetables there and the goat excrement means that the soil is very fertile. However the most striking thing about the garden has to be the view. The garden overlooks a deep gorge in the Taygetos Mountains. It is impossible to capture this with a camera but here is a picture any way:

The road that runs past the house does not really go anywhere. It ends at the church, which stands a little higher than the house. The picture below is one I took of the gorge from the church:

The Kaffeinion

The inside of the house needs lots of work, it will need to be entirely gutted. At the moment though there is one very delightful feature. In the main room downstairs, where the coffee shop was, there are several cartoons painted on the walls. They depict various humorous situations plus the aunt and uncle going about their business picking olives. There is a wonderful cartoon of the uncle playing a bouzouki.

This indicates to me there were some wonderful evenings of music and song in the building. The cartoons were painted by a local artist and his initials can be seen also painted onto the plaster, PK. When we went back to Greece (below) I managed to take some copies of photos of parties at the Kaffeinion, like this one . The guy playing the instrument is our neighbour Grigory. In the background is the cartoon of him playing the bouzouki! This was taken in 1997.

Phase Two:

Making Friends With the Neighbours …and about those goats …

November 5th - 11th 2006
We flew from London to Athens and on the 6th November. We picked up a car from the airport and then drove to a metro station in the suburbs of Athens. This was quite an adventure as the metro proved very difficult to find. Everyone was very helpful though and one lady got us to follow her car as she drove out of her way and deposited us at the entrance to the metro station car park – we would never have found it otherwise!

The Metro system in Athens is brilliant. It is clean, efficient and the environment is very pleasant. We emerged onto the street in the Monastraki area, right in the centre of town. Athens was absolutely freezing – barely warmer than London. Our hotel was….. well …… Let’s say it was an experience. Not one we will be in a hurry to repeat!

We had the first meeting with our architects Eleni and Jamie at their office close to the hotel. Eleni was born in Greece, although her mother is English, and Jamie is Scottish and married to a Greek woman. We got to know each other a little and got a few technicalities out of the way. We gave them a few copies of the all-important topographico, a technical drawing of the house and the land, which officially describes what we have bought and is stamped by the notary as the sale is completed. We arranged to meet with Jamie at the house later that week.
Roger and I then drove out of Athens and across the Peloponnesian peninsula to the Mani ending at Stoupa where we had arranged to stay. It was a fantastic drive. We had braced ourselves for the journey having been warned of the horrors of the Greek Motorway system. Excuse me? You have to be kidding. It was often a case of “spot the car”. We are so used to the horrendous traffic conditions in the UK that this motorway was a very pleasant surprise.

The next morning the sun came out and the weather got warmer and warmer. Roger, madman that he is was straight into the sea. As the week went on the temperature became warmer and warmer and we found ourselves the only people on a beautiful beach bathed in sunshine. Not that we had much time to linger on the beach. It was an exhausting time and a part of me was relieved to get home for a rest!

Things we did on our trip:

Befriended the neighbours – Eleni & Grigory. This is Roger with Grigory.

Took a very close look at the house and property, photographing it in detail

Met with an accountant to sort out our Greek tax return

Opened a joint account with the architects so they can access money easily as needed

Opened another Greek bank account in Euros and closed an old one which was in Sterling!

Gave power of attorney to the architects in relation to managing the properties utilities and applying for building permits

Led a global meditation from the garden. This photo was taken from my soul spot and was the view I had during the meditation.

Went for a walk on one of the mountain paths that lead from the house and saw: A TORTOISE!

Met Lykourgos, the gentleman who had been the owner of the property and who is Eleni’s brother (Eleni our neighbour), and listened while he indicated a piece of rope tied to a couple of trees which he explained was the boundary at the end of the garden. Attempted, successfully, to befriend him.

Met with a topographer to measure the property boundaries and discovered that the Greek family had sold us more land than they thought they had….opps …That rope is in the wrong place! Put things on hold while we came home to think what to do.

And yes... there are still goats! Well just one actually and I began to get rather fond of it. It managed to follow us upstairs into the house one day. It peered around the door of one room and then deposited a pile of droppings on the floor. Good job we don't have any carpets.

Avebury Peace Experience Meditation

2006-09-15T17:33:00.000+01:00

Stephen and I went to Avebury to lead a Peace Experience meditation on Thursday 14th September.

The energy there is very strong, I found it sent me a little loopy! I wanted to run around the site, like a small child. Great to have that feeling again but I am not sure I could live there!

The stone that Stephen is sitting on is very near the centre of the site. We both sat here for the meditation. Afterwards I took the paper with the names on the Peace Experience focus list (seen here in Stephen’s hands) and left it tucked under this stone.

I found the meditation very powerful despite the fact that it rained the entire time; towards the end Stephen put his hands on me for a while. Afterwards I found my body became very heavy and limp and I began to slide off the stone! I was fully aware that this was happening but at the same time in a very deep place.

After the meditation we walked around the outer circle of stones and I took a few pictures, hopefully I have caught some of the energy of the place. I would like to go back there as the stones cover a large area and it is great walking country.

The Song of Mother Divine

2006-09-13T19:59:00.000+01:00

Know only this:

Whoever I am …                                   … I am loved
Wherever I am …                                   … I am loved
Whatever I do …                                   … I am loved
No matter how I feel …                              … I am loved
Whatever is happening around me …                    … I am loved
Whatever is happening to me …                         … I am loved
When I suffer abuse …                              … I am loved
When I abuse …                                   … I am loved
When I am angry …                                   … I am loved
When I am at peace …                              … I am loved
When I am afraid …                                   … I am loved
When I am happy …                                   … I am loved
When all that I do is wrong …                         … I am loved
When no one cares …                              … I am loved
When I feel only pain …                              … I am loved
When I see only darkness …                              … I am loved
When I see only the Light …                              … I am loved
When I despair …                                   … I am loved
When I rejoice …                                   … I am loved
When I lay dying …                                   … I am loved
If I am desperate, poor, cold, hungry and abandoned …          … I am loved
If I am wealthy, happy and successful …                    … I am loved
However the world treats me …                         … I am loved
However I feel about myself …                         … I am loved
Whoever I believe myself to be …                         … I am loved
I step through this veil of illusion now and I know only this:

I am loved
I am loved
I am loved
I am loved

I am all that I am

So it is; so it shall be

Om. Shanti. Peace.

Arbor Low Meditation

2006-08-25T13:36:00.000+01:00

I visited Arbor Low in Derbyshire with my sister Dot. There were only a handful of people there. It is truly wonderful to go to a scared site and find no gift shop, no turnstiles, no guidebooks, just an open tin inviting you to pay one pound per person. There is a farm on the site where the monies are collected and, if anyone is around, they will point you in the right direction if you can’t find the path.

At 16.00hrs there was a peace experience meditation scheduled. People from all over the world would be tuning in with us. I placed a piece of paper with some of the names of these people in the very centre of the henge (see the picture of this). There was a powerful energy here. The picture above shows me feeling this energy with my hand. Dot and I both noticed tremendous heat coming up from the ground.

We sat in silent meditation for fifteen minutes. It was a wonderful experience. I played my flute briefly. Dot said she heard the music as if from a great distance away. We wanted to bury a shell from the Sea of Galilee at the site and so I dug into the middle spot. I discovered that someone had buried a crystal there. I placed the shell beneath the crystal and covered the hole with earth and stones.

My sister Dot

I was delighted to realise that the paper with all the names written on it had been sitting on top of the crystal for the entire meditation!

I hope to organise another meditation at a power spot, possibly Glastonbury. I hope you will join in. For more information on these meditations and how to take part go to http://www.peaceworkshops.com/

The Path to Peace Experience

2006-07-04T15:26:00.000+01:00

Something very exciting is happening. People all over the world are joining together at the same time in meditation and are receiving healing energy. There is no ideology, dogma, or religion involved and everyone has his or her own unique adventure. Some people report very little, others have life-changing experiences. Most experience a beautiful feeling of peace. Whoever you are, wherever you are, you can join in too without even leaving your own home. So what is this phenomenon and how did it start?
The Great Peace Experiment
On Christmas morning 2005 I discovered that my father had been taken into hospital. My sister Dot visited him the next day and called me to say that he was agitated, uncomfortable and plagued by his demons. We decided that we would choose a time each day when we would both meditate at our separate locations and set the intent to lead him out of darkness. This turned out to be a very, very powerful experience and certainly our father’s state changed. By the time I was able to make the journey to visit him a few days after Christmas he was peaceful, happy and very affectionate towards me. We continued to work with him until his transition from the physical plane a few days later. I found the whole experience very beautiful and uplifting. Dot and I realised that our working together in this way had been very powerful and had also connected us with our father in way that finally laid to rest all the many issues of our, somewhat dysfunctional, family!

A few days later it came to me that perhaps it might be possible to extend the work I did with my sister to anyone who was open to receive it. I also wondered if it would be possible to do this with a group of people. I was so strongly seized by this idea that I immediately sat at my computer and composed an email. I asked if anyone would like to join in “The Great Peace Experiment” – never one to under-sell you notice! I suggested that it would work like this:

Those who were interested would send their names to me and I would put these names on a list.

Then I would send out a list of times comprised of 15-minute slots.

The participants would then tune in at all or some of these times by going into a meditation and I suggested one or two points of focus but also suggested that each person do whatever they felt guided to do.

At the end of the final meditation participants would then feedback to me and we would see what, if anything, had happened.

During the meditations I would be focusing on the whole list of names every time and working in a similar way to the way I had worked with my father. I would be using visualisations to extend healing and lead everyone with me into a place of light. I asked that participants also take note of how they felt during and after any meditation slots in which they did not consciously participate. Bearing in mind time zone differences, it seemed likely that some meditations would inevitably be in the middle of the night or at very inconvenient times. Would participants be affected even if they were not intentionally tuning in?

I sent the email to a handful of contacts and immediately felt a bit silly. Who would take this seriously? It sounded crazy. “I will lead you into the light”. What was I thinking? In less that 24 hours I had, had around 100 very, positive replies from all over the world. I knew perhaps ten of these people. I now switched into a slight panic-mode. How could I cope with all these responses? Many of the responses were from people who seemed to have almost been waiting for this experiment to happen. The enthusiasm was extraordinary. What had I started? But most of all I wondered how I was going to deliver what I was suggesting. I kept reminding myself that this was just an experiment and it was entirely possible that nothing at all would happen.

When my friend the healer, Stephen Lewis, heard about what I was planning to do he suggested that he would help me. So we decided that we would consciously connect with each other wherever we were during each meditation. We also decided to actually meet up and meditate together for one of the slots. Stephen and I have a special soul-connection and when we work together it is very powerful. Perhaps it is a balance of female/masculine energy. We had never worked remotely in this way together and we wondered what would happen.

By the time the first round was ready to roll I had a list of over 200 names. It was really very exciting. But would anything happen or would the whole thing fizzle out like a damp squib? The meditations began and I found them very powerful, I was buzzing with energy and having some very interesting adventures! Even though I asked everyone to wait until after the final meditation before sending me any feedback it was no time at all before the feedback started to pour in. The fact was that some people were having such powerful experiences they simply couldn’t wait until the end of the experiment before telling me about them! Much of the feedback is now on my website: http://www.peaceworkshops.com/ but here are just a few edited examples:

“I have been feeling fantastic over the past week. Whether this is a coincidence or not we will never know but my life seems to have moved in bounds and leaps. All the things that I have been working with manifesting over the past three months, happened this week. I feel absolute gratitude for my life and everything in it.”

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“I first experienced a rush of energy, and it felt as if my body was swaying
from side to side. Felt very warm, tingly all over, very grounded and also
as if someone was holding my ankles in a steadying manner. Felt a huge wave
of sadness, but a nice kind of sadness if that makes any sense. Felt some
kind of release. Heard the words " I am coming home, I am home". Saw
colours, like looking through a kaleidoscope (pink and black, and deep
green)….”

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“L had been off all week with nasty flu like bug, she was still tired
and very grouchy and tearful, not as unwell but definitely not right.

We settled down and she went very deep, at the end she had a better
colour, bright eyes was smiling and very happy - a different child. It
was an amazing change.”

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“Overview:

* Expansion of energy in my body.
* Breathing more fully.
* Felt grounded and clear.
* I felt more present and awake.
* Some heart palpitations and pain.
* Twitching in the left eye.
* Congest and density breaking up
* After the 1st time slot I would start feeling the energy before the actual allotted time
* Heat flush in body.
Feeling the energy in the joints.
*The energy is moving through my body in waves...And it started all over again in waves! One after the other!
* My body feels like a balloon being blown up!
* Energy is now balancing in the body. Wow!
(Note from Sue: There now follows a very detailed account of each meditation. This person had some extraordinary experiences!)
Note: I seems to me that the past couple of days did a lot of energy clearing and the last day the energy moved smoothly in the body... moved in waves of energy.

Thank you!!!! Loved being part of this! Let me know how things turn out! I have a feeling that this is and will affect my outer world as well as the world in general. This is Huge!”

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The Experiment Evolves
Once Stephen and I had digested the feedback from the first round of the experiment we embarked upon two more rounds over a period of a couple of months. We tried making various changes and refinements to see what would happen.

Despite all our plans, round two of the experiment immediately took on a life of it’s own. I can’t remember now what we had originally planned to do, but as soon as the meditations began I was given the very clear message to forget all of that – whatever it was - and to ask everyone to focus on the Divine Feminine. I had some very “way out there” experiences during this round! I was taken back to some of the experiences I had in Egypt during the previous October (see my blog archives for full details) and I found myself standing on top of the Great Pyramid at Giza looking at the Christ Consciousness Grid which was above and around me, extending of course around the whole planet. I saw it transform, due to the energy of the whole group, from a bright translucent blue into a bright, slivery, rose colour. I told you these experiences were “out there”! Even wilder was the fact that at least three other people fed back to me with similar experiences. Something very big happened during this round and I don’t even pretend to understand what it was!

“I know we are only supposed to give you feedback at the end of the sessions,
but had to share this with you. This has been like an answer to my mixed
thoughts and feelings over the last couple of days. I have been focusing
on the divine feminine for the last couple of days now. This has been an
extremely strong calling for me. I have predominantly been masculine focused
on a personal level. I have had a constant battle within myself as to
direction and focus and have been pulled from side to side for quite a
while. I have been conditioned to be self sufficient and strong from a child
and to show the feminine side of emotions has been to a large extent taboo,
so this has always played second fiddle in my life and lately the constant
battle between the two has taken up a lot of energy leaving me rather
drained. So this is really like an answer to prayers.

The other wonderful thing is I am also seeing pink for the heart chakra
instead of green, thought I was getting this wrong somewhere. Have also
been drawn strongly to the rose quartz.

Yesterday at 10:00am (your time 8:00) I saw approx 230/250 people standing
around the world radiating pink light into the world from their heart
chakras. We were all also surrounded by Angels who were also radiating
pink into the world. I found that one of the most powerful meditations that
I have done so far.

Have a wonderful day and I am honoured to be able to participate in this
Peace experiment as have always believed that this is something that should
be done. Thank you for providing the ways and means to do this. You are
really special.”

Stephen’s experiences during these meditations were all fairly similar. During meditation he usually goes off somewhere and has no idea where he is or what is happening. I used to accuse him of simply going off to sleep! However, having worked with him for some time now, I have to reluctantly concede that this is indeed something other than sleep. As I mentioned above I was more aware of what was happening and feeling huge amounts of energy surging through my body. From my experiences and from some of the feedback we got it became apparent that something was working through the whole group as well as through Stephen and myself. In other words we were at times working on a different level of consciousness as a group.

For the most part this was a very pleasant experience. However I was beginning to get depleted. I was also working very hard at this time and dealing with some difficulties with my husband and children. In March this year I finally fell ill with some sort of flu – it was the only way my body knew to make me stop. This coincided with the third round of the experiment. The third round was very difficult for me and sometimes quite uncomfortable. I felt drained and I realize now that these subsequent meditations drained me further. Although the flu passed through my body very quickly and with no complications I was left feeling drained and exhausted. One moment I was fine the next all I could do was lie down. If anything at all stressful happened I was entirely unable to cope and had to lie down. My family and friends started to get very worried about me, I looked awful! I began to understand what was happening although initially I was reluctant to accept it.

The Balance of Positive and Negative
Over past two or three years I have been on a spiritual intensive. I have often described it as being like stepping on a moving walkway and suddenly being whisked along at a fair old pace! At the beginning of 2004 I signed up for the Seminary Programme with James Twyman and the Beloved Community http://www.emissaryoflight.com/ and I have subsequently been ordained as a Peace Minister. Taking part in the programme caused my work to change as I discovered myself as a healer and this led on eventually to The Path to Peace http://www.peaceworkshops.com/ and then the Peace Experiment.

Throughout all of this I held on firmly to the idea that there is only positive energy, there is only light. My argument was that light is an actual force and darkness is simply the absence of light not a force in itself. Once I discovered healing energy was coming through me I wanted to experiment and work with it myself. I did not want to follow any system that might influence my experience. At one point I was strongly advised by someone to protect myself or I would become drained and I tried it for a while but ultimately decided that it wasn’t necessary. Well that’s me folks. I will not be told what to do, I’ll listen, sure I will. But will I take advice? Oh no. I always have to find out for myself.

I was opening up during the group meditations and during healing sessions and channelling very powerful energies. I was also opening myself to negative energies. I finally had to admit this, I could feel it happening and I knew this was why I was feeling so weirdly ill. During a session when someone was channelling healing my way I went to a very deep place and understood that negative energy is not “bad”, this is a very Western way of seeing it. The negative is simply a balancing force and needs to be understood and worked with safely. If you are going to channel very powerful positive energies you will also have to deal with an equal and balancing amount of negative energies. It is only logical really. Like an electric circuit, there is a positive charge and a negative charge. This is what creates flow.

Since the Autumn of 2005 I have been following the teachings of a young, dynamic Indian Swami called Sri Kaleshwar (http://www.kaleshwar.org/ ) It is his mission to bring the secret, ancient teachings of the Indian Swamis to the whole world. He wants to train healers and teachers to go out and use this knowledge to benefit others. He teaches certain processes including using mantras to open our energy channels to the power of the five elements. I am following this system and finding it amazingly powerful. So it was to Kaleshwar that I turned for help. Here is a man who probably understands as much about how energies work as anyone else alive today. He has helped me way beyond my best possible expectations. At the time of writing this I am involved in the first part of a three-part process. This part concludes on the 8th August 2006. At the time of writing this (July 2006) I am allowed to use this mantra, part of my current process, as a healing technique for others. The benefits include protection from negative energies, lifting of depression and heartache and re-igniting the creative “spark”. So what will happen if I add this into the Peace Experiment? I will continue to experiment with this new element over the next few rounds of meditation. Would you like to join in?

Would You Like To Take Part?
If you want to join in with the meditations you can usually find the dates and times on my website. However I don’t always get around to posting them or to adding updates, such as suggestions for a particular focus or last minute changes. To keep up to date and to ensure that your name is always focused on you simply need to tell me that you wish to join in. You can do this by sending an email to sue@peaceworkshops.com It is helpful if you can use the subject header “Subscribe to Peace Experience”. Include your full name and the names of any others who wish to take part. I will then put any names on my focus list where they will remain until you ask me to remove them. I will also add your email address to my mailing list and send you any updated information particularly notifications of forth-coming meditations. There is no charge involved and your details are confidential. If I wish to share any of your comments/feedback with others I will first ask your permission. Full information and current feedback can be found on my website: http://www.peaceworkshops.com/

So join us and increase the power of a group of Light-adventurers joining together on their individual paths to peace. Who knows what will happen!

The Transformation of Bernard Merry

2006-01-10T20:14:00.000Z

My dad died last Wednesday. I know that such a thing is expected to be an occasion of mourning but that does not describe my experience.

My dad was born in Stoke-on-Trent in 1919. His mother, Margaret Merry, was not married to his father. In fact his father was a married man and, of equal importance, not a Catholic. Margaret was banished from the family home in disgrace and gave birth to her son at the home of a friend. One of her sisters came to visit just after the birth and reported back home: “….and she was feeding that bastard as if she had a right to.” My dad told me this himself when he was in his seventies, it was the first time I had ever heard him speak of it.

When dad was two years old his mother was sent away by the family to enter domestic service on the Isle of Wight. My dad was then raised by his grandmother and his aunts and uncles, of which there were many. He was treated as an embarrassment to the family and made to feel unwanted and unloved. Despite this his natural intelligence, wit and enterprising nature saw him through and allowed him to eventually become a very successful and skilled engineer with his own firm and small workforce.

But he carried this sense of terrible family disgrace heavily in his heart. His mother married a local gravedigger called Eric and they finally left the Isle of Wight and moved to Stoke where they lived in a large, cold house in the grounds of Stoke cemetery. When I was a child my mother used to take me to visit Margaret. But the family disgrace was so strong that I was always told she was my aunty, my dad’s sister. Since all the other relatives who were really his aunts and uncles and were claiming to be his brothers and sisters were much older than him also, this did not seem odd to me. When you are a child all adults seem pretty much as old as each other anyway. Only after her death was I told that she was my grandmother, but not until my dad was in his seventies did I hear some of the details of the whole sorry affair. He was never able to acknowledge her as his mother and she never acknowledged him as her son. She spent a lot of time with our family, she often came away on holiday with us and there always seemed nothing my dad wouldn’t do for her. But he had no memory of her ever putting her arms around him and hugging him, or of anyone else in the family doing this when he was a child.

It was difficult for my dad to deal with emotional issues and he had no experience of how to be a father or loving partner. He never quite shook off the darkness of his childhood. One of my sisters saw him in hospital on Boxing Day. He was slipping in and out of dementia and his demons were taking control. He was agitated, haunted and frightened. He kept trying to get out of his hospital bed and flee but was too weak to stand up. My sisters and I worked very hard on visualising him stepping into the light, until finally things changed. When I saw him, five days before he died a marvellous transformation was taking place, he was almost glowing. He was terribly affectionate towards me, holding and stroking my hands, arms and hair. Very unlike anything I had ever experienced from him before. As I sat with him he seemed to be truly in the “now”. His dementia meant that all the events in his life were mixed up and he was processing them in a random fashion. He would pass from an incident in his childhood to something from when I was small to an incident in the army to something going on in the ward, but it was all happening now for him. I had a real sense also that he was leaving his body. He was largely peaceful and seemed to be letting go, one by one, of all the things that were plaguing him. It was an awesome and beautiful experience.

I continued to help lead him into the light when I returned home, right up until the night before he died. During that night I felt him leave his body. The next morning I got a call to say that hospital believed he had had a stroke as he was completely unresponsive and was expected to die at any time. But we knew that he had gone already and that his consciousness was released fully into the light. His body was really no more than a car ticking over when the driver had left.

Around about 6.00pm on Wednesday 4th Jan his heart ceased to beat and he was officially declared dead. But to me he has never been more alive. Finally my dad has shaken off nearly 87 years of darkness and remembered who he truly is.

Bernard Merry born April 21st 1919. Born again January 4th 2006.

Sri Aurobindo

2005-11-10T12:24:00.000Z

“The only work that purifies spiritually is the work done without personal motives, without concern for renown or reputation of men or the honours of this world, without putting forward one’s own mental motives…..it is work done for the love of the Divine alone and ordered by the Divine.”

In a Nutshell

2005-11-05T16:48:00.000Z

So it is now one month since I embarked upon my trip to Egypt. I feel its time to give myself an overview of the trip as a whole.

The Main Issues
The main issues that came up for me were: control, surrender, trust and gratitude, integrity, vulnerability, leadership, power, discernment and humility.

Last night I read the transcript of the Kuthumi channelling www.lightweaver.co.za that took place on the Saturday before we left for Egypt. Much of the first part describes how the karmic pattern that members of the group are ending is related to issues of control. Kuthumi says: “All of you will be faced with the aspect of yourself that chooses to try and control.” When I arrived in Egypt I had not yet heard this channelling. When I did finally get to listen to a recording that Conrad had made on his iPod I had to laugh. You may remember my adventures on my journey from home with a delayed flight and a lost bag. My dark night of the soul in Cairo was all about my frustration and fear at my loss of control. Finally I understood the meaning of surrender, trust and gratitude:
Surrender means dealing with each moment as it arises and following your truth in that situation. In other words not making endless contingency plans – letting go of control. Trusting that you will be able to do this because you will always be guided and protected for your higher good. Expressing Gratitude for the protection and guidance that you receive, for your connection to the divine.

Integrity was another major issue for me in Egypt; the attributes of vulnerability, leadership, power and discernment were all connected to this. This is still very much a current issue for me and of course whenever something is uppermost you can guarantee that the Universe will contribute fully to light the way. Here are some quotes about integrity from a book I’m reading at the moment called “The Gentle art of Blessing” by Pierre Pradevand:

“Integrity is a quality of being. It is holding on to that which you know to be your highest sense of truth and vision at all times, whatever the cost. It is resonating with that deepest fibre of your being which urges you to peacefully but firmly hold your ground whatever the supposed prestige of the authority or person opposing you – not out of stubbornness, but prompted by the quiet daring of that inner urge in you which says:
‘ This above all: to thine own self be true.’
It means following your highest sense of right at all times,……..”

“Above all integrity means refusing to cheat yourself, to lie to yourself, or abide the doubtful shadow of half-truths……….when you lie to yourself , who is there to forgive you?….who will pick you up?……….Then only grace can save you.”

This last quote resonates deeply. This was the dark blockage in the heart chakra of our tour guide. This was the path that I was tempted to follow until I remembered my angel card and asked for help. Once I decided to follow the path of integrity the mists cleared, so to speak. My confusion and indecision ended to be replaced by simple clarity.

Where am I now?
I feel in a very different place to where I was before the trip. I feel very centred and strangely calm. For most of this year I had a strange feeling, almost a sense of foreboding about the autumn. It was very difficult to explain. My feeling was that there was some sort of big shift coming which would challenge me significantly and that I would need a fair amount of free time to deal with it. I found it very difficult to book anything into my schedule and still cannot even contemplate booking in anything that would be difficult or costly to cancel e.g. mind, body & spirit-type shows.

I have no doubt that my experiences recently in Egypt constitute the seismic shift I saw coming for all those months. Right now I feel that I am in a phase of integration although I am not really completely aware of what is being integrated! When I recovered from the Pharoah’s Revenge I had an explosion of mental activity where I needed to sort and file all my experiences, hence all the blogging. Now however I feel more like lying down in a darkened room to let whatever needs to happen happen! The last few meditations and healings I’ve participated in have been very powerful and I’ve gone off into some very deep place. I learned from someone that if your light body is off doing stuff you tend to feel suddenly rather blasted. I’ve been having that experience recently on emerging from a meditation or healing. So if you see me hanging around anywhere etheric do let me know won’t you?

Truth and Lies

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So what is the difference? When is a lie not a lie? Is it when the liar really, really believes the lie? In that case is it still a lie? Take a look at the photo, there’s a wonderful story of truth and lies associated with it that I’ll get around to in a minute. (Thanks to Horst for this picture).

I went to Egypt with no preconceptions about what I would find there, especially with regard to the Egyptian people. What happened was that I was really shocked by the lying and trickery. I guess I was a real innocent abroad for at least half of the trip, until I slowly began to get the idea.

Sue The Liar
I am quite possibly the world’s worst liar – to the endless entertainment of my family. The problem I have is that what I am thinking is usually written very clearly on my face. This can be a real problem in social situations especially as Roger, my partner, is an actor. We occasionally go to see productions in London featuring one of our friends. What do you say in the bar afterwards if it was a terrible show? Even worse, what do you say if your friend gave a terrible performance? Tricky when you’re someone who can’t lie.

Because I am pathologically honest I tend to assume that anyone I come into contact with is telling me the truth. Until I find out that they are not. This made me an easy target initially when I arrived in Egypt. Fortunately I caught on eventually and being in a group helped as I was able to learn from the experiences of others. I would have been stripped of all my cash after a couple of days if I’d been alone I’m sure of it.

Integrity
Apart from losing cash there was something worse I could have lost – my integrity. Before I left for Egypt I drew an angel card to give me a focus for the trip. The card was “Integrity”. As often happens with these cards, I was not really sure what this meant for me at the time when I picked it out of the box. It was later that its significance dawned on me.

There seems to be a particular type of lying and trickery that happens, well to the tourists at least, that involves a sort of distortion and even wilful blindness of the truth. For example our tour guide led me on a real old merry dance, so much so that I am still not sure of the boundary between what was true and what not so. It is and was very confusing. Much of the confusion arises from the fact that he genuinely seemed to believe what he was saying. Integrity came to my rescue. I firmly stepped forward into that camp as I saw how far out of it he was.

It made me think a lot about the nature of truth and lies, especially the lies we tell to ourselves. If we believe these lies firmly enough then those around us will often believe them too. But to lie is to lose your integrity whether you are lying to yourself or to the supermarket that has undercharged you. Each time we do something, however small, that causes us to lose integrity we block the flow of light. Where light is blocked there is darkness. My work and my perceptions are largely kinaesthetic so it was extremely revealing to me when I gave some healing to our tour guide. Here I was able to pick up what was truly going on and it was quite shocking. There was a darkness in this man’s heart chakra and the blockage causing this was not moving. Here was the truth at last.

The Donkey’s Tale
On a lighter note here is a great story that illustrates this extraordinary jumble of truth and lies that I found in Egypt. See the picture at the start of the blog?
After we had had the amazing experience in the Great Pyramid (see earlier blog-stuff) we were taken to a viewing point where it is possible to see all 3 pyramids together. Of course this spot is a magnet for traders and camel drivers. There are stalls selling knick-knacks and guys trying to entice you onto their camels for short trips across the dunes. Also there are many tourists crowding forward to take photographs of the view of the pyramids. It is certainly a great view but I was having a problem with the numbers of people. So I moved down the side of the sand dune a little. There was a dip at the bottom before the next sand dune rose up. In the dip there was the donkey in the picture, standing all alone. Idalize went to investigate, followed by Horst with his camera. In a flash the guy in the picture appeared from nowhere and plonked Idalize on the donkey’s back.
“Come, come, take picture. No money. No money.” Horst approached with his camera. “Come, no money.” The guy kept insisting. He tried to draw me over too but I turned away. I was fascinated by the unfolding drama though, there had to be a trick here. But what was it?
“Take photo. No money.” Now the guy was persuading Horst to give him the camera and he was taking a shot of Horst standing with Idalize and the donkey. At the end of this performance (which went on for some time) Horst felt he ought to give the guy something as a show of gratitude. So he offered him two Egyptian pounds.
“No, no.” Said the guy. “Is 20 pounds.” Horst was taken aback.
“But you said ‘No money’”. Without a flicker the guy replied:
“Is not for me. Is for donkey.”

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Idalize and Horst (picture taken by the donkey guy!)

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The view from the pyramids panorama

Surrender, Trust & Gratitude in Egypt: Part 2

2005-10-26T16:47:00.000+01:00

The Story Continued
So there I was alone in the Bates Novotel in Cairo. My luggage was missing and all I had was the clothes I was travelling in, a souvenir from Egypt t-shirt, a toothbrush and a hideous pink swimming costume that was haemorrhaging pink dye all over the bathroom. All that was needed to complete the picture was some young guy dressed as his mother wielding a knife, slashing away at the shower curtain.

My Dark Night of the Soul
It seems fairly pathetic in retrospect that I should have been plunged into a crisis just because my luggage was missing, but this is what happened. I tried to sleep but it was proving impossible. My mind was churning over and over, I was formulating contingency plan after contingency plan. I was trying to cover every possible disastrous scenario of where my bag might be and when, if ever, I would see it again. Every time I thought I had settled my mind down, that I had covered all the possibilities, I would remember something else and start again from the beginning. The main problem was the dreadful frustration I was feeling about not being in control of the situation. I had no faith what so ever that anyone at the airport would be efficient and there was absolutely nothing I could do about it. This was the crux: there really was absolutely nothing I could do about it.

Of course I knew that the more negative energy and stress I poured into this situation the less likely it became that things would turn out well. But what could I do? It was now quite late and I really needed to sleep, I was absolutely exhausted and facing another long day starting at 3.00am. The situation was made more difficult by the fact that my room overlooked the pool where weird disco music played incessantly. What the bloody hell was going on? What was I doing here? I had been so sure that I was doing the right thing in taking on this trip. I’d spent loads of money that I could ill afford, I’d given up the opportunity to be with people I really love in Assisi, I was taking what should have been an amazing spiritual trip and I felt like poo and just wanted to go home. Pull yourself together girl!

I think that eventually I simply was too tired to resist any longer. Somehow I got myself to the point where I truly let go of the situation. I got myself to the point where I truly surrendered. I decided that there was nothing I could do about my lost bag and that anything could happen and so there was no longer any point in making contingency plans for imagined scenarios. All I could do was to wait and deal with whatever happened in the moment, making the best decision at the time. Interestingly this was not so much an intellectual understanding as an energy shift. As soon as it happened I fell asleep almost at once, it was amazing. The next thing I knew it was 2.45am and I was wide-awake. I decided to use the number I had been given and phone the airport to find out if my bag had turned up. Feeling anxious I picked up my mobile and I dialled the number, there was a discouraging beepy tone followed by a message in Arabic. Oh man! I knew it. Then an English message followed telling me the number I had dialled had not been recognised. I knew this would happen. With little hope I tried variations on the number in case I had misread a 1 as a 7 or whatever. No good. So I started to look for a number for a travel rep. As I did this the bedside phone rang. It was my 3.00am wake-up call. I replaced the handset and it rang again almost immediately. Someone was trying to tell me something about my bag in broken English. Finally they made me understand that the bag was in the hotel reception area and that I needed to come down and sign for it! This was an outcome I had not foreseen or planned for! It was the most unlikely thing of all to have happened. I was beside myself with joy and gratitude. Please fly Alitalia!

It All Makes Sense.
So that was a long story, taking place over 24 hours. I was physically and emotionally drained. But, crucially, I was also enlightened.

How could I expect to embark on a major spiritual adventure and not expect to be challenged? If you want to be a heavy hitter, if you want to play with the big boys you have to be prepared to face up to your vulnerabilities. So I was off to a great start! My crumple buttons had been well and truly pressed. What does it for me? Issues around being late and losing my stuff. All issues to do with control. “Control” is the big word here.

I had to laugh at myself – and it wouldn’t be the last time I did that on the trip. Here was I pontificating about surrender, trust and gratitude, I was even running a workshop with that title. Well they say you tend to teach what you yourself most need to learn, how true. I’d just taken a 24 hour-long master class in the subject! I was soon to realise that this was going to be a feature of the trip. I found that I worked through some of my major vulnerabilities on this trip, all my shit came up in fact, but it was all in a very compact time frame. Stuff that would normally take years to recognise and process, I was zipping through it in a matter of days or hours.

After this salutary experience I was able to let go of my need to control everything. Really. I really, really was. This of course affected and informed the rest of the trip, half the time I didn’t even know where we were going next. This is why I found it easy to let go of my plans for a peace prayers ceremony at the axis of the Christ Consciousness grid. I stopped worrying about coordinating times with Beloveds and friends in the rest of the world. I allowed my intuition to guide me in many things. Guess what? This is still happening.

Post Script
Oddly just as I wrote the last phrase of the previous paragraph my son Arthur appeared at my side. It was 2.10pm and he had just got out of bed (teenagers!). He was not looking bright-eyed and bushy tailed having arrived home around 4.00am this morning after a clubbing trip “Up West” last night. In typical Arthur fashion he reminded me that I’d promised to give him a lift this afternoon and we needed to go NOW. Had he eaten yet? No. How irritating, I was just about to go out and have a swim, go to the bank etc. I looked at what I’d just been writing. I sighed and I sent him to make a sandwich then bundled him into the car and drove him to Wimbledon. I was driving across Wimbledon Common on the way home when, on a whim, I decided to drive to a part of the common I used to go to in order to walk my dog, probably been 18 years since I was last there. I parked my car in the old familiar place and walked a little way into my most usual dog-walk route of old.

I found myself stopping at a spot called Caesar’s Well. This was where my partner Roger and I had sprinkled the ashes of the child we lost in 1986. It is a spot that holds many memories of dog walking and also playing with my daughter Amy in the well itself. I was knocked out by the energy there, it was really, really powerful. I stayed there for quite a while in the end, about an hour. I found myself slipping into an enhanced state of awareness where the trees and the ground itself seemed to pulsate. It was a beautiful experience. So I guess I have to say “Thank you” to Arthur for disrupting my plans for the afternoon thus enabling me to have a magical experience!
Strange but true.
I’m going to post this blog now before anything else happens!

Surrender, Trust & Gratitude: Part One.

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Oh my how I blather on about this. I even run an entire workshop with this as the title. As if I know something about it! Well the Universe has a way of calling your bluff should you be foolish enough to start to pontificate. I have just had a serious knuckle-rapping on the theme of surrender, trust and gratitude. So here is the tale of Ms. Spiritual Big-Shot and her journey to Egypt:

London Heathrow to Milan
One of the many oddities about my recent trip to Egypt was that the group that I travelled and worked with were all from South Africa. This meant that I was the only group member travelling to Egypt from the northern hemisphere. I had to make my own travel arrangements to Cairo. I arranged to arrive at Cairo airport at 14.15 hrs on October 4th where I was to meet with a representative from the travel company (Nile Travel) who would then take me to my hotel near the airport. The group from South Africa were due to arrive in Cairo at 4.00am on the following day. I would be taken to meet them and we would all immediately take a domestic flight south to Aswan and then board the Nile cruiser to sail north again.

I was concerned about these travel arrangements because, aware that I would be arriving alone, I felt the need to have all the Ts crossed and Is dotted to cover possible problems. I was especially concerned about having a contingency plan in place in the event that the travel rep. was not there to meet me. I had been quite pedantic about this with the travel agent before leaving yet still felt that I did not have the full details of where my hotel was and how to contact someone should I need help in Cairo.

So the day arrived and the taxi got me to Heathrow (only about 20mins away) for 04.20hrs. I was flying with the Italian airline Alitalia and my flight was in two stages, the first being from London to Milan, due to leave at 06.00hrs. I would have a short space of about one hour and a half to transfer in Milan to the flight to Cairo. All seemed to be going very well until I got to the boarding gate. It was announced that there was a problem with the aircraft. As the clock ticked down I began to get very concerned that I was going to miss the connecting flight in Milan. This was not a good scenario for several reasons including the fact that the next flight to Cairo was around 23.30hrs. Would I be able to get through to someone at the travel agency in Cairo to warn them that I was going to be arriving 12 hours later than arranged? Would anyone be there to meet me at 2.30am? And so my mind went from possibility to possibility and from contingency plan to contingency plan. But there was nothing at all that I could do except wait. So I waited. As I waited I wondered. This was not a good start to the trip. What was going on here? Surely I was taking the trip I was meant to take? I was clear that this was so for lots of reasons. So why was it immediately difficult? For goodness sake I hadn’t even left the country yet and I was having problems. It didn’t seem quite fair to me.

Finally we took off from London, horribly late. It seemed impossible to me that I would catch the connecting flight as planned. I asked the steward about it and he gave me a glimmer of hope as he explained that the flight from Milan to Cairo might well be delayed as well, so not to give up. I wondered though how there would be time to transfer my luggage from hold to hold. He seemed to think there was a possibility that it might work out and this was quite comforting. But it was not a relaxed flight for me. Once again I was busily engaged in making plans for a variety of scenarios.

We landed in Milan at just about the exact moment the Cairo plane should have been trundling down the runway. I got off the plane as quickly as possible but then had to wait for the whole plane to empty as we had to get into a wretched coach. The coach took us miles across the airport until finally I was able to shove my way past everyone and beetle off to the transfer gates. To my astonishment and delight the Cairo plane was still boarding according to the information screens. Not really believing I would make it I never the less ran with renewed vigour. Amazingly I found a coach still waiting at the boarding gate while some sort of drama was in progress between the lady checking us in and an elderly Arab lady. What luck! I now began to relax. I was going to get the flight after all. Phew.

The next thing that happened was far too extraordinary to be simply a co-incidence. I got off the coach by the front steps to the aircraft. Alitalia give names to their planes and I saw at this point that the plane was called “Piazza di San Francesco Assisi”. I stood there totally stunned with tears welling up in my eyes. Some of you reading this will understand at once why this had such an effect on me. For those who are wondering, Saint Francis of Assisi is very important to those of us who are members of the Beloved Community. www.emissaryoflight.com We often focus on the prayer of St. Francis (“O lord make me an instrument of your peace….”) and his philosophy: to bring peace to all and where necessary to use words, is the philosophy of a Minister of Spiritual Peacemaking. There’s more if you want to look on the above website. However not only this but also Kuthumi, the Ascended Master channelled by the trip leader Michelle, also manifested as St. Francis. I had given up the chance to go on a Beloved Community retreat in Assisi (which had taken place just about 2 weeks before my Egypt trip) in order to go where I was most called at the time. I had been really sad to miss this and had heard all about the trip from my friends before I left London. I felt the plane being named after St. Francis was such a confirmation that I was following the right path.

As I sat on the plane I mused on the message of confirmation I was being given here. I also realised with a jolt that the male and female energies that had been with me the previous week during meditations and healings were St. Francis and St. Clare. OK yes, I realise this sounds a bit nuts but welcome to my world. I had been avoiding personifying or naming these energies but despite this had a very clear visual image of them. Once the obvious hit me I realised I was in for a very powerful trip. But I still wasn’t quite getting it. When you don’t quite get it the Universe will repeat the message louder and louder until you do get it. And so it was.

Cairo
This was my first trip to the continent of Africa and so Cairo was inevitably rather a culture shock. Looking from the plane as we circled before landing I was struck by several things. Especially striking to me was the fact that Cairo is built in the desert. There is sand and wasteland right up to the edge of the city. Also the city is huge and sprawling with hundreds and hundreds of identical apartment blocks. On stepping off the plane I was struck by the smell first of all. I have no idea what it was but it was a new smell for me and rather unsettling. The next thing I noticed was the surprising humidity, I had expected dry heat.

Oh joy! There was a guy holding a piece of paper with my name scrawled upon it. I had convinced myself he would not be there. He was extremely efficient and guided me through passport control and immigration. I met up with him at the baggage reclaim carousel. I was not really expecting to see my bag and I was not disappointed. Of course it wasn’t on the plane. How could it have been? In my heart I’d known it would not be on the flight but I was still really unhappy when it did not come off the carousel. I was now plunged into a maelstrom of lost bag procedure. These situations are never easy when you are feeling tired so I went as slowly and carefully as possible, trying all the while to anticipate where mistakes or misunderstandings might happen. The next flight from Milan was due to arrive about 02.30hrs. Hopefully my bag would be on this flight because I was due to leave my hotel at 04.00hrs. I did not like this arrangement at all. It seemed to me to be highly unlikely that my bag would catch up with me before I flew to Aswan, assuming it was even on the next flight. I was not happy.

I was taken to my hotel where I had to buy some essential toiletries and a t-shirt and swimming costume. I was so tired and stressed that I didn’t quite realise the extent to which I was ripped off for these until later. I tried to settle myself down by going for a swim. The only costume that was my size was truly hideous. Desperate as I was I bought it anyway and swam up and down the hotel pool, a symphony in fluorescent pink. Presumably I left a pink slick behind me as once the costume got wet it bled pink dye everywhere! Welcome to Egypt Sue!

Coming soon: Part Two, My Dark Night of the Soul! Suddenly it all makes sense.

Music at the Sacred Sites: Part 2

2005-10-20T10:45:00.000+01:00

Voice Activations
Why music was appropriate at some sites I do not really understand. It was possibly to do with the connection between music and sacred geometry. There is an extensive explanation of this in Melchizedek’s book “The Ancient Secret of the Flower of Life”. Whatever the reason it sometimes felt like the right thing to do and was then very powerful. I had no preconceptions about any of this really apart from knowing that I needed to take my flute to Egypt. It was quite surprising to me when I began to realise that some sites required vocal music rather than flute music.

Dendera.
Of all the sites we visited this was surely one of the most powerful. Certainly it had an extraordinary effect on me. I first spotted the Temple of Hathour from about one mile away. It had a similar effect on me to Philae in that, even from a distance, I felt a strong reaction in my heart. The coach stopped in the car park outside the temple perimeter and we filed out to the entrance. I immediately noticed that I was having difficulty walking. My legs felt rubbery and my balance was unsteady. Once inside I managed to stay with our guide until we came to a side chamber called The Venerable House. This is a small rectangular chamber with an unusual feature that is a small recessed alcove at the top of the southern wall opposite the entrance. The alcove is accessed by a ladder and illuminated by artificial light. Ancient statues were kept in this room, the most revered statues of Hathour being kept in the upper recess. Once the guide had finished talking and everyone began filing out of the room, I climbed the ladder, followed by Idalize (one of the children). We both sat in the upper recess and I thought about playing my flute. The energy there was so powerful that I was shaking. I felt conflicted. Should I stay with the main group and follow the guide? Was I being rude by so often breaking away from the main group? Several of the group had stayed in the room below but I decided that perhaps I should follow the main group and descended the ladder. I felt shaky and agitated. Then I changed my mind and climbed the ladder again. I took out my flute still feeling very shaky and now breathless as well. I found it difficult to settle and focus. The flute was not really speaking to me but I started to play anyway. It was difficult as my hands were shaking and my breathing was uncontrolled. After I’d been playing for a few seconds something very weird happened. I became aware of the sound of voices harmonising together. It sounded like a heavenly choir! Oh my gosh was this it? Ascension at last? Then I realised that there was a group singing together somewhere else in the temple! I stopped playing, the voices were the best kind of sound here.

After this I wandered around the temple into various rooms. At each one I found something that felt like the right thing to do. In the Sanctuary I sat on the floor and prayed the Peace Prayers. In the Chapel of the New Year I opened myself up and channelled light. I didn’t really know what I was doing, I just let myself be guided by my intuition. Eventually I joined a few others who were with our guide. Someone suggested I visit the crypt. I was reluctant to do this, I wasn’t keen on going underground. There was a wave of insistence that I do this and our guide took me to the spot where I could descend. There was a tiny ladder affair leading to what looked like a hole. I didn’t too much fancy this because I sometimes have nightmares about squeezing myself through narrow gaps – obviously some sort of birth trauma thing! The narrow gap in front of me was exactly the type of thing I dream about. I took off my rucksack and bravely squeezed through the opening. I found myself standing at the mid-way point of a narrow corridor. The whole area was about 30 feet long, if that, and about as wide as a bus-shelter. Mercifully it was very well lit and beautifully decorated but hot and humid. I examined the area to my right in a rather cursory manner as all the time I was feeling on the edge of claustrophobia and telling myself that I didn’t really want to be there. Looking back down the length of the crypt I saw that there were several people at the other end. Some of them I recognised as our group, including Stephan, one of the children. There were two or three people I had never seen before. As I approached they all stood facing the end of the crypt with their hands reaching out from their sides to both sidewalls. This was easy to do as the crypt is so narrow. I stood like this too for a while and became aware of a powerful energy. All thoughts of getting out had flown and I was now enjoying the experience. I had a very strong urge to make a vocal sound. I found myself singing a deep Om. At once the others down there joined in and we were soon harmonising together beautifully. It is an experience I will carry in my heart for the rest of my life. I realise that it may not sound like very much but the feeling while were doing this is indescribable. Suddenly a mixed group of pilgrims came together for a common experience and purpose and made some wonderful music at the same time!

Afterwards the two adults from our group who had been in the crypt for this experience described how Stephan had virtually dragged them both down there. Neither had been keen to go but both had been swayed by his sense of urgency. He later talked about experiencing a light beaming through his body. Both adults said how they, like me, had also had an amazing experience in the crypt.

Giza
I have already written about the voice activations that took place inside the Great Pyramid. This was the other place where vocal music seemed more appropriate and more powerful than flute music. In fact I had no urge at all to play the flute here.

Post Script
We discovered who the celestial singers were at Dendera. They were a group from Germany. Their leader also channels Kuthumi and they were in Egypt on the same mission as us, to activate the sacred sites! Not only this but one of our group, Horst, had been searching for this German lady, the leader of the group, for around a year. So finally he bumps into her at Dendera! You couldn’t make it up.

Music at the Sacred Sites

2005-10-17T15:10:00.000+01:00

My Flute
Some of you reading this will know that I own a Native American flute. It is a beautiful instrument both to look at and to listen to. I have an unusual relationship with my flute and I always find it very difficult to explain.
When I was preparing to leave for Egypt I knew that it was essential for me to take the flute. I had no idea where it would want to play; I suppose I fondly imagined chugging along on the Nile cruiser, watching the sunset, the flute playing haunting music….something like that. What actually happened was that there were three sites where the flute was bursting to get out of my bag and one where I took it out anyway but then realised it was voice activation that was needed rather than flute music. The Temples of Philae, Edfu and Hatschepsut were flute places. Dendera and Giza were voice places. (See below for pictures of these temples)

I was totally unprepared for the power that gushes forth from the sacred sites in Egypt. It was very noticeable that different sites affected different members of the group differently. In my case there were a few spots that affected me deeply and often, quite unexpectedly. Mostly these spots were directly connected with the goddess Hathour. Usually I would know as soon as I saw the Temple from a distance that the flute would want to play there. Equally I would usually know if it was not the right place to play. I am completely unable to explain the how and why of this process. This was a problem for me in some ways because I usually only play the flute when it is asking to be played. I do not particularly like to start blowing it in any other circumstance. When it does want to be played it can play quite beautifully and if anyone is around to hear it they will often want me to play again. How can I explain that the music is not really coming from me? I either sound evasive or ridiculously precious. I do not consider my flute to be a performance instrument and it will not play to order. In fact if the circumstances are very wrong it will not play at all! I usually have no memory of what it played after we have finished, although I always really enjoy it at the time. I am often in a deep meditation while playing. I felt uncomfortable sometimes trying to explain to members of the group that the flute would not be playing at a particular place.

Anyway I began to understand that some parts of the activations we were performing involved music. Sometimes it would only be a very short burst of flute music required. Perhaps if I describe the occasions when it played for me in Egypt I can get you to understand how we work together.

Philae
The first temple that we visited was the Temple of Philae, dedicated to the goddess Isis. The approach to this temple is via the water. As our boat sailed around to the dock I looked up and caught sight of a small area of the temple courtyard dedicated to Hathour. There were several pillars decorated with the face of the goddess (we were to see this again and again at some of the other temples). I had a strong and very unexpected emotional response to this. It was almost as if someone had reached into my chest and squeezed my heart.

The dock where the boat was landing was in complete chaos. Many similar boats were trying to dock all at once, pushing and shoving each other out of the way to achieve this. Tourists were trying to get on or off boats and being funnelled along a tiny, precarious looking, pontoon & gangplank. Talk about an accident waiting to happen! All through this madness I was being pulled towards the temple by my heart. After an age I was finally ashore. I had no interest in where we were supposed to be gathering or in the rest of the group at this point. I had to get to this little area in the corner of the huge courtyard where I had seen Hathour faces. Despite the fact that the whole area was awash with swarms of people the area I had spotted from the water was deserted. There was also a little shade there (it was stonkingly hot and exposed otherwise). I sat down in the shade right in the very corner and looked up at the column opposite to me into the face of Hathour.(That is the picture at the start of this blog) On my right was the perimeter wall and then the water. I went into a deep meditative state while still being aware of what was going on around me. Michelle http://www.lightweaver.com/ and the rest of the group appeared and she spoke for a while and then our guide did his thing. I listened to pretty much nothing of what he said. All I wanted was for him to move on so I could play my flute. I was to come to understand eventually that the flute would want to be played at the sites connected to Hathour. I cannot remember it wanting to play anywhere else on the whole trip.

The group began to drift away and I pulled out my flute and started to play. It always amazes me how the flute just takes over and different music comes from it every time. I never remember what it plays but I did have an awareness that it sounded especially beautiful in this stunning location. Later in the week one of the group, Horst, told me he’d recorded some of it and let me listen. It was indeed really beautiful. After playing the flute I drifted out of meditation and finally found the group again.

Edfu
At the Temple of Horus in Edfu I drifted away from the group looking for a particular chamber in which to play my flute. We had visited this chamber as a group about half an hour before and it had seemed to me to be depicting the merging of the Divine Masculine with the Divine Feminine in perfect balance. This is a very large temple and contains many chambers inside. All seem to be identical in size (roughly 3m x 6m) but each has unique wall carvings. I couldn’t find this chamber again but was strongly pulled into a different chamber that I hadn’t noticed before. All the carvings on the walls were defaced but there seemed a strong energy. I sat on the floor and meditated for a while, it really was a powerful room. Then I pulled out the flute and it started to play. I have no idea what it played now but at the time I was amazed at the sound it was making. I have never heard it play like that before. It was a brilliant experience. I wish I had a recording of it because now I can’t remember a note but I can remember how I felt while it was playing and I think it must have sounded wonderful. It was almost as if that chamber had been specifically designed for that music. I finished and put my flute away. When I left the chamber I was aware that the guards were scampering around trying to find where the music was coming from, I guessed it was because they wanted to stop me.

Incidentally when I was back on the boat I picked up my guidebook intending to read about the Temple of Horus. There are very few photographs in the book but there was a small photo of the chamber I had found with the defaced figures. Of course they were Hathours. This was just one of so many synchronous things that happened during the week.

Hatshepsut
We visited this temple directly after The Valley of the Kings. We were already hot and tired. You can probably see from the photo below that it was in a very exposed position and the heat was fierce. One or two of the adults in the group were really struggling and the children Idalize and Stephan found it very tough going here. There was almost nowhere to stand that was not being blasted by the full force of the sun. When you look at the photo of this temple you might noice that to the left of the picture there is a section of the temple with no roof (just above the head of the figure in the foreground). This was the area dedicated to Hathour and the part of the temple where the flute wanted to play. A few of the group sat around with me as I played. Not long after I started I became aware of one of the guards making noises somewhere on my right. I guessed they were going to try and stop me playing so I ignored it and carried on. He went to fetch a guard who could speak English who was soon saying “No, no, please…”etc. Again I ignored him until the flute had finished. It meant I only played for a short while but it was enough to accomplish whatever it was I had to do there. It would have been nice to have carried on longer as, once again, the flute sounded good in that spot.

I was interested in the reactions the flute was provoking. I was also interested in my reaction. I felt no anger or resentment what so ever. I felt quite sorry for these guys who were confused and frightened by the music and also probably quite scared that they might lose their jobs, which was probably a real possibility. The incident brought up quite a bit of anger for one member of the group which was a great learning opportunity for her to take. I was also reminded about how threatening the Divine Feminine can be! No wonder they set about defacing us!

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Temple of Isis, Philae

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Temple of Horus, Edfu

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Temple of Hatshepsut

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The Temple of Hathour, Dendera

Remember

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Each of you are great lights, you are beacons, you are leaders therefore, go forth and lead your life. Remember to lead a life does not mean that you have to control others. Leading your life means that you ensure that your actions, your words and your thoughts are impeccable, that everything you look at, you see through the eyes of God, that everything you embrace you embrace through the arms of God, that your love be unconditional, that your observations be unconditional and that all that you come to be with, you come to be with, with sincerity. If you find yourself in the presence of conflict, in the presence of someone whom you feel uncomfortable with, even in that moment of experiencing negativity or discomfort, you can still be impeccable in your actions and with grace, with devotion, with light and sincerity, you can step into the power of your light, turn from the darkness and walk away, leaving a seed of light within the world of darkness you have turned away from. Do you all understand this?

Taken from a Kuthumi channeling through Michelle Eloff

Thanks to Craig

The Divine Feminine

2005-10-15T15:42:00.000+01:00

Please bear with me when you read this blog. I am working out an aspect of my trip as I write and it might not yet be totally coherent. I know I’m on to something here but I don’t think it has fully revealed itself to me yet!

Before I left for the trip to Egypt I became aware of a feeling of strong connection to the goddess Hathour (see the picture). She basically represents the Divine Feminine qualities of compassion, intuition etc. Essentially the same type of stuff we associate with Venus, Athena, Mary Magdalene and so on. Those of us involved with the Beloved Community feel that the time is now here for the Divine Feminine to reassert itself.

What I came to eventually realise was that one of my jobs on this trip was to connect with and reactivate feminine energy at certain relevant places.
As a Minister of Spiritual Peacemaking I work at embodying peace, compassion, unconditional love consciousness, gentleness, intuition and light. There are certain energy hot spots for these qualities. In modern day Egypt the feminine in society seems to be repressed. It was very noticeable for example how few women there were out and about. In Aswan I saw hardly any women anywhere and all the services on our Nile crusier and at our hotels were provided by men. At many of the sites we visited faces and figures of Hathour were defaced. Seems like there is great fear created by the Divine Feminine. I began to realise that I am one of those able to bring Divine Feminine qualities into this area of the world where they were once respected and cultivated and where there are hot spots connected to this. In so doing I was being used to help reactivate the light connected to these qualities to release this energy out into our personal and collective energy grids.

NB: Can I just say right now that if anyone has even the remotest idea of what I am talking about here please can they explain it to me?

The Power of Sekhmet
There is another aspect to the Divine Feminine that only began to dawn on me right at the end of the trip, at Giza in fact.
I doubt if I will ever understand with my conscious mind all that was going on in the King’s Chamber, but when I came out something opened up for me that I hadn’t thought about before.

I have begun to recognise the power aspect of the Divine Feminine. Some of this led me onto some of the realisations I’ve had about leadership, which I will write about later.

When we visited the temple of Karnak our guide took us to a far corner of the complex where, behind a closed door we visited a beautiful statue of Sekhmet. One of the group had been asked by Kuthumi to perform a ritual there. Now I’ll put my cards down on the table here immediately and say that I actually know very little about Egyptian leaders and gods etc. I came away from this trip not having learned very much either simply because I very rarely listened to anything the guide told us. I was having a very right brain experience at these places and looking for space and silence the whole time. So as I understood it Sekhmet is a goddess of war. This didn’t really appeal to me so I took part I the ceremony but held myself back a bit I now realise. It was later that Sekhmet began to get to me.

One thing I have absorbed is that the gods are personifications of certain qualities. Looking at my copy of John Anthony West’s excellent book “The Traveller’s Key to Ancient Egypt” I see he has some interesting things to say about Sekhmet (I really should pay more attention):
“Sekhmet had both beneficent and maleficent aspects. She was associated both with healing and with disease.
War was waged under Sekhmet’s aegis. She inspired both reverence and fear. She is usually portrayed as a woman with exposed breasts and the head of a lioness; but on occasion she has an ithyphallic male body.”

Sounds like a high-maintenance friend to me.
For me Sekhmet embodies the female aspect of power. Actually I wrote that sentence and much of the rest of this blog before reading West’s description quoted above. His description makes even more sense of what I am grappling with here. Because I am grappling with this stuff. I’m not writing this because I think I’ve got any answers or any profound insights. I’m making it up as I go along and trying to make sense of it all.

So, why did this feminine power aspect thing particularly become relevant to me? It was in Giza that I realised that the strong masculine energy of the Great Pyramid has an equally strong feminine aspect and that I was experiencing this feminine aspect as well in the King’s Chamber.
This power I am referring to is not an aggressive power governed by lust consciousness. It is an assertive power. It is the energy that drives change forward. It is the energy that provides a type of centred strength that is important as a platform for providing support to others. It is also important to be centred and strong in order to be able to step out on your own path to peace, especially at times when the way forward is hidden. It is a force that is born from love as opposed to the masculine power which is a force born from fear. I want to say right here that I am talking about forces here and that both men and women manifest both of these forces. I know women who mainly manifest masculine power and I know men who mainly manifest feminine power. I am not talking about a boys v. girls thing specifically but a love v. fear thing. This stuff can be quite complex. In sacred geometry every male spiral, for example, has a complementary female spiral which has a complementary male spiral which has a complementary female spiral .. ad infinitum. All forces and shapes exist simultaneously one after the other. (STOP Sue!)

So the inner truth I am playing with right now, and having lots of fun, concerns power and its various manifestations. As usual I don’t really have any answers, just more and more questions!

The Peace Prayers Activation

2005-10-14T15:38:00.000+01:00

Before I left for Egypt I had been very unclear about how we were going to get to the Christ Consciousness grid axis point and at what time. One of the big lessons for me about this trip, which started even before I left Heathrow, was to do with surrendering control (more on this another time – it’s a good story!). So when I finally got to ask our trip leader Michelle Eloff about when we might be at the grid I was fine with the information that she had no idea either, apart from the fact that it would be on Monday 10/10/05.

I have been on such a journey, physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually. By the time we actually got to the Giza Plateau I had let go of all my attempts to co-ordinate anything at a specific time. I had also surrendered to the fact that we were very unlikely to make it to the grid access point at all. Also, by now I had planted the peace prayers in several other places. So, bearing all this in mind let me tell you the story of what happened at Giza:

The Great Pyramid of Cheops

I wonder if there is any other man-made building in the world that has had so much written about it, that has generated so much speculation? Before we got there I had almost written it off as being “over-done”. From the outside it is certainly impressive. It really is big and you can only marvel at how on earth they managed to build it at all.

There are currently only 100 tickets a day sold that allow access to the interior of this pyramid. Our guide, Abdallah, made sure we arrived before the complex opened. He got the tickets we needed to access the actual plateau then the coach drove to another ticket office and we all piled off in double quick time and ran as fast as we could to buy a ticket to the Great Pyramid interior. I got the first ticket of the day! I took that as a good omen and resisted the temptation to hang on to it for half an hour and then sell it on at huge profit to an American tourist.

My original intention regarding the peace ceremony was that I would put on my minister’s stole, use spikenard and frankincense oil and also play my flute, as well as reciting the peace prayers plus the prayer of St. Francis. All these items were in my rucksack. On the way in to the pyramid I had to leave my rucksack at the door. I hesitated and considered making a fuss about it and then I decided that I would go with this and trust my intuition.

Ascending to the King’s Chamber

I tell you seriously that this is not for the faint-hearted! At first there is an easy, quite roomy passageway that was forced through the rock in the ninth century. Soon though you come to the passages that were cut by the pyramid builders themselves. On your left, and blocked off by a gate, is the original entrance passage descending from the true entrance ( I wish we could have gone in this way). This passage continues on down below where you stand to a chamber deep beneath the pyramid – I would really like to go down here. Of course this is also blocked off. So the only way is up, up through a very narrow, low passageway called the Ascending Passage. It is impossible to stand up so you have to squat. The angle of ascent is 26 degrees and the passage is 39 metres long. It is gloomy, hot and very humid and there are people in front and behind of you. It seems to go on forever. I found the best way to cope was to leave a gap between myself and the person in front and not to look up ahead or behind until I was nearly at the top. I kept telling myself that the passage changed soon and opened up (at this point I was glad I’d studied a few books before I went. If I’d thought the passage carried on like this right to the top I might have lost the plot here!).
Just when it became almost unbearable the passage emerged into a higher passageway. Carrying straight on ahead, and via another tiny passage would have lead to the Queen’s Chamber. Disappointingly a gate also blocked this. So the only way was up again. However this part of the ascent was via the much larger Grand Gallery. Stunning. As I was walking up here I actually said the word “Ascension” and thought of my friend Christina who was half convinced I was not going to be coming back from Egypt in my human body! But it did feel like ascension. Again this was a long, steep climb and all the time it seemed to be getting, hotter, more humid and more airless. At the top one had to squeeze through another tiny doorway (more re-birthing trauma!) until finally emerging into the King’s Chamber.

In the King’s Chamber

Most of the group I was with were already here, including Michelle and Arend’s tiny children – how did they get them up the Ascending Passage? My first overwhelming feeling was that I was unable to breathe. The chamber was full, hot, humid and airless and I was out of breath and perspiring from the effort of getting there. I would say don’t even think about going into this pyramid unless you are fairly fit!

My second impression was that I was in a very powerful place indeed – I almost said “holy” but I don’t use that word (!) The room itself is basically a dark, granite rectangular box10.5 x 5.2 metres. No windows or decoration of any sort. It is constructed from huge granite blocks and conforms to the proportion known as the golden section or Φ. There is much written about the dimensions of this chamber and their significance I am not going into that stuff here as it is a very big subject. http://www.floweroflife.org/articles.htm is a good starting point.

The lightweaver group I was with were by now mostly gathered around the one object in the room. This is a granite sarcophagus without a lid. Everyone was chanting Om and harmonising together beautifully with their hands placed on the sarcophagus. When I think back now I find it difficult to chart the sequence of events in that room with any accuracy. I was aware that sometimes the room was quite full, but mostly our group dominated the space. Many people found it too overwhelming to stay there for more than a few minutes possibly because of the humidity, possibly the power of the space. I remember sometimes standing with the group and joining the singing, and other times I doing my own thing.

I knew that the sarcophagus had been moved from its original position in the room. I believe that different reasons are given for doing this. In “The Ancient Secret of the Flower of Life”, Drunvalo Melchizedek suggests that this is because visitors to the room were lying down in the sarcophagus and have weird experiences. He says that this is because a powerful line of energy comes up through the floor at a 45 degree angle precisely at the point where your head would be should you be lying the right way round in the sarcophagus. I decided to try to find this energy spot. I found a place that felt very energised to me and stood there for some time with my peace prayer beads in my hand. I went into a very deep meditation, my hands shaking with the power going through me. It was a distinctly male energy. At some point one of the children led me back to the sarcophagus to join with the rest for a while as group members were now taking it in turns to lie down in the sarcophagus. I went back to the power spot and sat down on the floor this time. I can’t recall when, but I performed the peace ritual – without props(!) - all by myself because it felt like the right thing to do. I also activated my Mer-Ka-Ba light energy field and visualised myself travelling up and hovering above the apex of the Great Pyramid. (OK here’s something really weird for those brave enough to still be reading this……… I feel as if I am still there in that form – I warned you it was weird!) I have no idea how much time passed during all of this. Finally the energy was stirred a little by three visitors who had strong reactions to what we were doing. (Actually I have to say how amazing it was that quite a few people joined in with us in different ways, fantastic.) As I mentioned I was bit zoned out much of the time, but I suddenly became aware of voices raised in anger. I heard one guy saying loudly to members of the group, “ This is a once in a life-time trip, I may never come here again and I am disappointed. This is not what I was expecting.” Imagine going to possibly the hottest hot spot on the planet and being disappointed! Imagine being upset that it did not conform to your expectations! I wondered what his expectations had been. Whatever they were he was certainly very limited by them.

Finally there were only a few of us left in the chamber. I decided that I had finished my business there and I now wanted to descend again and take a better look at the Grand Gallery and the entrance to the Queen’s Chamber, so I left.

But what an experience, what an experience. If you get the chance to do this then go. But go with a group of nutty lightworkers, that way you can dominate the space with light and silence (or chanting) to override the visitors who chat loudly and tick this site off along with the Valley of the Kings etc. before rushing on to the next thing. It is a sacred, sacred space and should be treated as such. But be careful, take only an open, compassionate heart and leave your fear at the door with your camera!

Orbs Photographed By Me Over the River Nile

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The Pharaoh's Revenge

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Here I am back from Egypt. I am still processing some of the things that happened while I was there. I returned home and immediately collapsed with a condition known as “The Pharaoh’s Revenge”. Believe me, this is one Egypt experience you do not want to have!

I am beginning to feel human again today, hence the fact that I am at the computer. I have to admit though that this wretched condition has been something of a blessing in disguise. I have to be really unwell to actually stop and go to bed. So I have been unable to do anything other than think for the past 48 hours or so. This means I have had some time to start to process my experiences.

I have to tell you that this was a remarkable trip and I cannot imagine that I will be able to do justice to it here. There are things that are beyond explanation sometimes. However I will try my best and also include some pictures.

Please bear with me while I get back to full strength, I know many of you are really curious to know about how my peace ritual went in particular. Even though that was chronologically at the end of the trip I will write about that first either later tonight or tomorrow.

Many blessings to the many people who joined me energetically on Monday, we did a great job folks!

Egypt

2005-10-03T12:37:00.000+01:00

Tomorrow morning I am off to Egypt. I have been called to this part of the world since childhood especially to the Giza area. Earlier this year I described to a friend exactly the trip I wanted to go on: not a regular type of tour, something with a group of lightworkers, visiting some of the sacred sites and meditating/channelling/activating light. That sort of thing.
So once again, ask and you will receive (this does work), a few days after verbalising what I wanted I got it. My dear friend Maryanne, one of the beloveds in Ireland, sent me an email from Michelle Eloff http://www.thelightweaver.co.za/ advertising exactly the trip I had asked for. Exactly the trip I had asked for. Despite the fact that this would mean I would now be unable to fulfil my commitment to the seminary programme this year (I am supposed to attend a Beloved Community retreat) http://www.emissaryoflight.com/ I just had to go. I could hardly ask for something and then turn it down when it was offered to me.

Why?
But why am I going really? Why am I so drawn to Egypt and Greece? Well I can come up with lots of reasons, some left brain, some right brain. But I’ve always known about this trip that there was something else, a very specific reason for my going.

Thursday 29th September
So this was a very odd day. So odd that I chose not to blog it at the time. I had a couple of weird experiences (even weirder than usual) that have rather shifted me. There is no way I am going to tell the whole story here a. it is far too long and b. you really would think I‘ve lost my mind! Here is an edited version:
In the morning I was working with someone, I was channelling healing energy. I was in a deep place. I became aware of two very beautiful energies, one female and one male there with me and me there in the middle, neutral. All joined together and all separate, within and without.
Later that day a very powerful healer friend was working with me. She was channelling energy my way and I was sitting in a chair. I immediately went into a very deep, but very conscious, meditation. My body was heavy and I was deeply relaxed but my brain was alert and I was aware of my surroundings. Very, very clearly I was given two important pieces of information. One concerned what my third workshop in the path to peace series would actually be – more on this another time. The other piece of information concerned my trip to Egypt. I was told what I have to do there and I hope you will help me with this.

The Unity Consciousness Grid
If you are into sacred geometry Egypt is the place to visit. One of the many amazing things that happens there is the emergence of the Unity or Christ Consciousness Grid. http://www.floweroflife.org/articles.htm Try this link as a start for more info on this subject. There’s a great article called “The Christ Grid” here are a few quotes:
“For those who are new to sacred geometry, let me first say that grids are expressions of energy and consciousness that follow proportions defined by principles of sacred geometry and they span the entire multidimensional universe.”

“So the grid of the planet is an actual geometric and energetic expression of the principles of creation that can serve as a bridge between our planet's physical and energetic manifestations.”

My job is to go to the source of this grid in Giza (or as near as I can get) and to energetically put the Peace Prayers into it.

The Peace Prayers
We use these as a powerful focus in the Beloved Community http://www.emissaryoflight.com/_.aspx?content=peaceprayers&t_t=6
These prayers come from the twelve major religions of the world. On October 28, 1986, the leaders of these religions came to Assisi, Italy, the home of St. Francis, to offer the prayers of peace from their traditions.

When I get to the correct spot I will perform a simple ritual to enable the prayers to energise the Grid. As we are all connected to the Unity Consciousness Grid the prayers must then become a part of us all. As a matter of fact I’ve no idea if that will happen or not, I simply know that I have a job to do and this is it!

How You Can Help
Join me in this ritual. I will be doing this at some time on Monday 10th Oct (10/10/05 – interesting numbers!). I am not sure exactly when. However because of time differences around the world it would probably be very difficult to coordinate in real time anyway. I will try to post to this blog while I am away and give a more accurate time window. However that might not be possible so here is my suggestion, we can do this whatever happens: I will perform the ritual whenever I can and I will send text messages to a few friends at the time if possible. Other than this I would ask you to tune in energetically with your focus on the peace prayers, or just on peace if you prefer, at these specific times. I will tune in too and recite the prayers no matter where I am at the time.
Cairo Time Zone (ONE hour ahead of GMT): 12.00 noon. And again at 19.00hrs. So the times I am suggesting are local times Cairo - you will have to check your time zone http://www.timeanddate.com/worldclock/ At these times I will recite the peace prayers wherever I am. If you have peace beads or anything similar, crystals etc., leave them outside or near a window from midnight Sunday through to midnight Monday so they can absorb the energy we put into the Grid very directly.
When I get to the Grid I will perform the following ritual – there may be changes of course if I get any more info channelled my way in the interim. Please think about performing this ritual yourselves at some time on Monday. Remember that the most important thing here is that, what ever you choose to do, you open your heart and allow the flow of divine love through you and of you.

Peace Ritual at the Christ Consciousness Grid 10/10/05
We enter now into the Sacred Office Of Peace

Hindu Prayer
Oh God, lead us from the unreal to the Real.Oh God, lead us from darkness to light.Oh God, lead us from death to immortality.Shanti, Shanti, Shanti unto all.

Buddhist Prayer
May all beings everywhere plagued with sufferings of body and mind quickly be freed from their illnesses.May all beings swiftly attain Buddhahood.

Zoroastrian Prayer
We pray that understanding will triumph over ignorance,
that generosity will triumph over indifference,that trust will triumph over contempt,and that truth will triumph over falsehood.

Jainist Prayer
Peace and universal love is the essence of all the Gospels.Forgive do I creatures all,and let all creatures forgive me.

Jewish Prayer
Oh come let us go up to the mountain of the Lord,that we may walk the paths of the Most High.And we will beat our swords into ploughsharesand our spears into pruning hooks.
Nation shall not raise up sword against nation,
Neither shall they study war anymore.
And none shall be afraid,
For the mouth of the Lord of Host has spoken.

Shinto Prayer
We earnestly wish that the wind will soon puff awayall the clouds hanging over the tops of the mountains.

Native African Prayer
For you are one who does not hesitate to respond to our call, you are the cornerstone of peace.

Native American Prayer
Give us the wisdom to teach our children to love,to respect and to be kind to one another,so that we may grow with peace in mind.

Muslim Prayer
Praise be to the Lord of the Universe,who has created us and made us into tribes and nationsthat we may know each other,not despise each other.

Baha'i Prayer
Be a breath of life unto the body of humankind,a dew upon the soil of the human heart,and a fruit upon the tree of humility.

Sikh Prayer
Know that we attain God when we love,and only that victory endures in consequence of whichno one is defeated.

Christian Prayer
Love your enemies,do good to those who hate you,bless those who curse you,pray for those who abuse you.Blessed be the Peacemakers,for they shall be called the Children of God.

Kuthumi’s Prayer
I am light. I am of light. In light I stand and through light I serve.
I am love. I am of love. In love I stand and through love I serve.
I am all that I am.
So it is.So it shall be.
Om. Shanti. Peace.

Searching the Toolbox

2005-09-30T13:38:00.000+01:00

It’s funny how when an issue pops up it seems to pop up for many at the same time. Something to do with those wretched 100 monkeys I expect*. Anyway the issue of the Ego keeps raising its head at the moment. The Ego of course being that weird thing we carry around with us that we think is us. Back to the Hindu definition of the Real and the Unreal again I suppose. The Ego is definitely not the Real but it is what we tend to assume is Real.

So the next time you have that dialogue in your head along the lines of “There’s nothing special about me.” “I mustn’t be egocentric, I mustn’t show off.” “Who do I think I am that I could achieve that? I can’t do that.” Etc.etc. you know the territory. Perhaps try a trick I’m working on to help myself in these situations:

I try and visualise my ego as a toolbox. I have chosen to be here in this human form and in order to function I need to keep my body working well and take care of my various essential needs. I will need some tools for this. I also have a job to do while I’m here and in order to do that job I will need a few tools as well. My ego allows me to interface with this world we have created and to do what I need to do. I need to learn and develop so I can remember my unique role and then go about fulfilling it. So I take a look in my toolbox to see what I have. My toolbox will of course be different to yours and the tools I have will be specific to what I need in order to do my special job. So if I take myself as an example: so far I have remembered that I am here to heal and to lead others into the light to make it easier for them to connect with their higher selves. I am here to bring peace everywhere and where necessary to use words. Some of the tools I have been given to do this include the ability to teach, natural leadership skills, heightened kinaesthetic sensitivity, a kind of centeredness that makes others feel safe and the ability to write creatively and clearly (don’t laugh!).

Now take a look in your toolbox and ask yourself what tools can you see there (sometimes they are concealed from view) and what are they best used for? Are you making use of your tools or are they going rusty? Oh this analogy has a lot of legs! It can run and run! Fill in the rest yourself before I labour it to death!

So I see it as being that simple.
A mistake we all make is to think that we are the toolbox. That leads us into all sorts of trouble. That’s how we can start berating ourselves for our natural abilities. That’s how we can start prancing about like the sage on the stage. That’s how can get drawn into the illusion of separation (see my earlier ramblings on this if you’re interested).

One more thing … then that’s it for the toolbox thing for now. Who has the best tools, you or me? The answer of course is that we both do. You have the best tools for your job and I have the best tools for mine. You might as well ask who has the best tools between a plumber and electrician. So yes we are all connected to the same source and behind our masks there is pure light. Also we are all unique and special. No two of us have exactly the same job or exactly the same box of tools.
Phew.
Now for a joke:

Joke Time
Charlie dies and goes to heaven. St. Peter meets him at the pearly gates and takes him on the guided tour, like he does for all the new arrivals. Finally he asks Charlie if he’s had lunch. “No” says Charlie “I died before lunch actually”. “Well” says St. Peter “you’re in luck mate because the canteen is serving lunch right now.”
So St. Peter takes Charlie to the canteen. There he sees all the heavenly throng holding trays and queuing up for food. St. Peter proceeds to point out the various celebrities. “There’s St. Michael the Archangel, there’s Mother Teresa, there’s St. Francis of Assisi…” Just then a guy in a white coat bursts in, pushing Charlie and St. Peter out of the way. He grabs a tray, rudely pushes to the front of the queue, grabs some food and rushes off to a table where he sits down on his own. Charlie asks: “Who ever is that?” St. Peter says, “Oh take no notice of him. That’s God. But sometimes he thinks he’s a doctor.”

*I can’t be bothered to explain about 100 monkeys. If you don’t know what I’m talking about you’ll have to Google it.

path to peace workshop one

2005-09-26T15:22:00.000+01:00

My latest path to peace workshop one was scheduled for Friday 23rd September (last Friday). It became fairly obvious that I would have to cancel it when I had only taken one booking with 8 days to go! The temptation in this type of situation is to indulge myself in a warm bed of negativity, a nobody loves me type-of-thing. I was tempted. My indecision about what to do with the venue I had booked was creating some anxiety for me. Should I cancel and get my money back? Should I try to raise a few path to peaceniks of old to come along for a day of meditation and bodywork… or something? Some folks were away, some folks didn’t reply and some were keen. I got all mixed up about who had said what. Finally I decided to stop. I asked myself “Can I see the room? Am I breathing? Am I in balance?” Then I just told everyone I could think of that I would be at the venue from 9.30am until 1.00pm and to come along if they wanted to and to bring a voluntary contribution to help pay for the hire charge.

Guess what? This worked really well. Four folks turned up and it was obvious almost immediately that it was going to be a very powerful morning. Well I don’t know about the rest of them, but I had a good time!

We meditated for 45 mins and then exchanged healing, all working in our different ways. In fact someone suggested we all focus healing on one person, taking turns to be that one person. I can see how that might not work, a mix of incompatible energies perhaps or everyone sure they were the only one doing it the “right way”. Actually none of that happened, it was great. Everyone did his or her own thing and it worked really well. I felt terrific afterwards and still do. I’ve got loads of energy and the cold that was starting up has gently faded away into the background. So now I think I will organise mornings such as this on a regular basis.

So what seemed to be a negative situation turned into a very, very positive experience once I had decided to let go of the morning and to stop trying to control everything (Control freak? Me?). But no matter how often I am given that lesson it is always a difficult one: surrender, trust and gratitude. That’s the title of workshop two by the way. We always teach what we need to learn the most!

My joke for today:

Q: How many psychoanalysts does it take to change a light bulb?

A: Two. One to change the bulb and one to hold the penis.....sorry! I mean ladder. Why do I keep saying penis?

The Illusion of Separation

2005-09-25T22:04:00.000+01:00

The more we rely on technology the more we give away our power. This is the situation in some of the Gulf Coast areas in the US right now. It made me think about how much technology I take for granted and how very difficult I would find it to survive without electricity, gas, running water etc. Many of us who live in cities in particular, are so removed from the natural world that we can start to believe that we’re in charge. This is a really dangerous distortion. The recent disaster in New Orleans in particular highlights how close we all are to chaos.

In the blink of an eye everything changes. In the Guardian newspaper on Saturday there was an interview with a woman who survived one of the recent Tube bombs in London. She had been right next to the bomber when he detonated his bomb. One minute there she was thinking about getting to work, in the next second she was sitting in a tangled mass of metal. She lost both legs. Before this she had a good job, was very well paid and lived a full and active life. Now she sits in a wheel chair, totally traumatised, unable to come to terms with what has happened.

Perhaps a mistake we make is to believe that things will always be the same. We are totally shocked when there is a major Earth shift or huge storm. Why is this? We know that the Earth is in a constant state of shift, that continents have been torn apart, seas have risen and disappeared again and so forth. Things have never always been the same. Do we think that the Earth will stop moving and shifting because we are so advanced technologically? Do we think we should somehow be able to stop natural disasters now?

Humans have never been so technologically advanced and so spiritually impoverished all at the same time. It seems to me that one follows on from the other here. Technological advancement seems to cause the ego to believe itself to be a god. Looking through the eyes of the ego we see only separation and separation is our greatest fear. In fact fear of separation is the root cause of all our fears. As small children we fear separation from our parents and this transforms into fear of separation from each other and the Divine. No one could become a suicide bomber unless they were convinced that they were separate from others and from the Divine. No one could kill or harm another unless their egos were running the show. Why? Because the truth is that separation is an illusion. It is an illusion that the ego buys into fearfully, but in out hearts we know that it is not so.

When was the last time you asked your heart about anything? It takes practice to be able to communicate with the heart, as most of us haven’t done this since we were children, if at all. If you look into the eyes of a baby you will clearly see what I am talking about. A light shines out from a baby’s eyes. A baby will hold your gaze and connect with something deep inside you. What is that? Where do you feel it?

The Hindu religion refers to that light and that feeling as the “Real”. Everything else is the “Unreal”. The Real is the Divine and it is what we actually are, all of us. We are not separate from God, we are God, all of us. Now hang on a minute. If we are all God what about all the religious leaders, all the clerics, all those people who are there to connect us to God – or whatever you call it? What about them? Well you tell me, because the fact is that we all have a direct line connection, in fact we are the connection. In our hearts we know this, but we have to listen to the heart to hear it.

2005-09-25T14:58:00.000+01:00

This is my first blogging adventure. I hope it will be interesting to read once I get the hang of how to do this!